Lemthewiser
Member
June 1st, 2021.
Somehow I've ended up back on this forum, venting about my frustrations with PIED and performance anxiety AGAIN . I really can't believe it. I can't believe I let myself down again. I feel like I've wasted so much time dealing with this, and I am continuing to waste so much of my life dealing with this bs. I feel as low now as I ever did before.
Some context -- I went 90 days hard mode at the beginning of the year. And from April up until the end of May I felt amazing. Not an anxious thought or worry related to my performance in bed. I felt truly myself and I was making up for lost time if you know what I mean. And now here I am again, one mistake, one slip up, and I feel as anxious, as nervous, as stressed, and as worried about the time it will take for me to reach that point again. I didn't even look at porn in the traditional sense. I was feeling so good, a sexual partner and I made a video. And I watched that and we shared some other x rated photos with each other. Ever since then I have been feeling terrible. I can't stop thinking about how low I feel and how I will miss out on truly enjoying this summer because of this. I've really messed up again smh and it makes me sad. I am turning 30 in August and I hope that I can beat this for good by then. I really don't want to bring this into the next decade of my life. Hoping this post will be therapeutic in some way and clear my head.
Here I am again, going to pick myself back up and try again.
Thanks for reading...stay vigilant and protect yourself. Porn is really not worth it.
LTW
Somehow I've ended up back on this forum, venting about my frustrations with PIED and performance anxiety AGAIN . I really can't believe it. I can't believe I let myself down again. I feel like I've wasted so much time dealing with this, and I am continuing to waste so much of my life dealing with this bs. I feel as low now as I ever did before.
Some context -- I went 90 days hard mode at the beginning of the year. And from April up until the end of May I felt amazing. Not an anxious thought or worry related to my performance in bed. I felt truly myself and I was making up for lost time if you know what I mean. And now here I am again, one mistake, one slip up, and I feel as anxious, as nervous, as stressed, and as worried about the time it will take for me to reach that point again. I didn't even look at porn in the traditional sense. I was feeling so good, a sexual partner and I made a video. And I watched that and we shared some other x rated photos with each other. Ever since then I have been feeling terrible. I can't stop thinking about how low I feel and how I will miss out on truly enjoying this summer because of this. I've really messed up again smh and it makes me sad. I am turning 30 in August and I hope that I can beat this for good by then. I really don't want to bring this into the next decade of my life. Hoping this post will be therapeutic in some way and clear my head.
Here I am again, going to pick myself back up and try again.
Thanks for reading...stay vigilant and protect yourself. Porn is really not worth it.
LTW