Floppy_England
Member
Hi guys,
So where do I start? Just joined tonight.
I am 38 years old and discovered porn when I was about 14. Just magazines back then. I moved on to videos over the next few years. When I was 18 I went to Uni and discovered the Internet. Here I was downloading some pretty hard core stuff on the p2p. I finally lost my virginity at 18 but getting it up was a struggle. I put it down to alcohol. Not long after I got with a girl and had amazing sex for 1.5 year. All this time I was PMO at least three times a day and probably having the same amount of sex with her. I had no ED then. When we split up I was dry for 1.5 years. Still PMO at least 3 times a day maybe more. When I finally got laid again it was a struggle getting it up. I found getting it up was always a struggle with new partners but it improved over time spent with them. I am guessing it was taking me time to rewire after long dry spells and lots of porn.
Sometimes one night stands just ended in embarrassment. Years went on with PMO three times a day and the content got harder and harder. High speed porn got in to my life about then. I became more ashamed of what I was watching. I found reboot nation about six years ago and tried a reboot then. I lasted about three months and kinder forgot about it. I was with a girl for about 5 years and I was becoming less and less interested in her. Still PMO 3 times a day. The last 1.5 years of the relationship we never had sex. I was more interested in the screen. That ended and I went a streak of nearly 2 years without sex. Then I started to notice ED was getting. I finally got laid only with the help of viagra. That was the only thing that worked. This was just a one night stand. I had another dry spell and then covid hit or the wank year as I like to call it. In 2021 I started to think about reboot nation again as my ED was getting bad. I could only get it up with porn. Long gone were the days of having a wank in the shower.
So about 90 days ago I decided to reboot. One month in I had another one night stand. I thought I would test myself and nothing worked. I took three viagra and just manged to have sex but it was a struggle. My ED was the worst it had ever been. That sent me back in to a flatline. I am still in a long flatline but I am seeing some improvements. At first I felt Asexual, just not interested in girls. As Gabe would say 'a limp noodle'. No morning wood, nothing. I think things are starting to improve now. I get morning wood about 4-5 times a week now. Mostly about 80% but on the odd occasion a wopping stronker. I really have to fight it hard not to wack one off. I had a wet dream last week. The first in probably 10 years and probably my 3rd ever. So that is where I am. There is slow progress. Something is happening but I am not sure what. I did go and have a massage about three weeks ago. Not a dirty one just a regular massage. I thought it might help with the rewiring. I think it did help, I felt great after. I am also considering seeing a sex worker and explaining my condition and asking for some sex therapy. Perhaps am erotic massage. I don't think sex would work, not without the blue pill. I want my dick back without taking those things. I really want to speed up this process. It would be easier if I had a GF to help rewire but I don't.
So 20 years of wanking and I am now Mr Floppy. Only if I knew then I would never have watched porn. My dream is to find a girl settle down and start a family. I need a working dick for that and I am determined to do it.
So where do I start? Just joined tonight.
I am 38 years old and discovered porn when I was about 14. Just magazines back then. I moved on to videos over the next few years. When I was 18 I went to Uni and discovered the Internet. Here I was downloading some pretty hard core stuff on the p2p. I finally lost my virginity at 18 but getting it up was a struggle. I put it down to alcohol. Not long after I got with a girl and had amazing sex for 1.5 year. All this time I was PMO at least three times a day and probably having the same amount of sex with her. I had no ED then. When we split up I was dry for 1.5 years. Still PMO at least 3 times a day maybe more. When I finally got laid again it was a struggle getting it up. I found getting it up was always a struggle with new partners but it improved over time spent with them. I am guessing it was taking me time to rewire after long dry spells and lots of porn.
Sometimes one night stands just ended in embarrassment. Years went on with PMO three times a day and the content got harder and harder. High speed porn got in to my life about then. I became more ashamed of what I was watching. I found reboot nation about six years ago and tried a reboot then. I lasted about three months and kinder forgot about it. I was with a girl for about 5 years and I was becoming less and less interested in her. Still PMO 3 times a day. The last 1.5 years of the relationship we never had sex. I was more interested in the screen. That ended and I went a streak of nearly 2 years without sex. Then I started to notice ED was getting. I finally got laid only with the help of viagra. That was the only thing that worked. This was just a one night stand. I had another dry spell and then covid hit or the wank year as I like to call it. In 2021 I started to think about reboot nation again as my ED was getting bad. I could only get it up with porn. Long gone were the days of having a wank in the shower.
So about 90 days ago I decided to reboot. One month in I had another one night stand. I thought I would test myself and nothing worked. I took three viagra and just manged to have sex but it was a struggle. My ED was the worst it had ever been. That sent me back in to a flatline. I am still in a long flatline but I am seeing some improvements. At first I felt Asexual, just not interested in girls. As Gabe would say 'a limp noodle'. No morning wood, nothing. I think things are starting to improve now. I get morning wood about 4-5 times a week now. Mostly about 80% but on the odd occasion a wopping stronker. I really have to fight it hard not to wack one off. I had a wet dream last week. The first in probably 10 years and probably my 3rd ever. So that is where I am. There is slow progress. Something is happening but I am not sure what. I did go and have a massage about three weeks ago. Not a dirty one just a regular massage. I thought it might help with the rewiring. I think it did help, I felt great after. I am also considering seeing a sex worker and explaining my condition and asking for some sex therapy. Perhaps am erotic massage. I don't think sex would work, not without the blue pill. I want my dick back without taking those things. I really want to speed up this process. It would be easier if I had a GF to help rewire but I don't.
So 20 years of wanking and I am now Mr Floppy. Only if I knew then I would never have watched porn. My dream is to find a girl settle down and start a family. I need a working dick for that and I am determined to do it.