My experience with NoFap and ED (+4 yrs)

El nene

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Hi, first of all sorry because i’m not a native english speaker but i’ll try my best to explain everything.

I’m a 20 years old man from Spain and I have been doing NoFap for around 4 years. It has really helped me to feel so much better as a man. I mean, it has changed my life completely. I always was the typical insecure guy that couldn’t do simply things like speak to somebody on the street and obviously it was impossible to me to speak with a girl. Now I’m really happy with my social life and feel really atracttive and confident to talk with women.

I started NoFap when I was 16, on the 2017 summer. I wasn’t depressed or having real mental problems because of the porn addiction appart from my social anxiety, but I discovered some Youtube videos that explained all the benefits from stop beating your meat, so I decided to try it.
That first streak was the longest one that I remember. I took it really seriously and did NoFap for around a year. During this time I really felt the changes on my attitude and even on the way girls treated me. I started training at the gym and became a high energy boy, when I was a porn and gaming addict.

But why I broke my streak?
I felt in a depression because I moved from my city to another one. At first I didn’t feel sad from that, because I think not fapping was locking me really happy and motivated with everything, but a t some point I realized everything had changed so much that I felt to a reality and started to questionate everything. Felt like everybody was so false and really nothing was important. I drop out high school because of this crisis and started to feel some things that I have never felt before like no libido and no interest on anything relationated with sex.
I felt so scaried so I fapped again, thinking like, “okay, this always have worked for me so it will help me now again”.
That wasn’t really true.

I was not excited by porn no more. I fapped in a very bad way, forcing me to have an erection and ending so fast because I didn’t have any real sexual desire. I did it like 3 or 4 more times and quitted from fapping again, but this time was different because my mind and my body were obligating me.

During 2 years depressed, I tried to fap sometimes but it never was the same. Started NoFap again. I was almost 19 when I got out of the depression and when I started to get my libido back. Started to feel good again but still scared of meeting girls because I thought I wasn’t ready to have sex with them. With the time I said like “fuck off” and started to go to parties and having contact with girls again.
At sex time, I discovered that I couldn’t have erections when drunk but I had them when I was sober.
I can’t refuse drinking when I go to parties so it really became a problem for me because I went in a dynamic of no having erections and overthinking about it so much it affected to me even when I was sober.
And then pandemic went.
During quarantine I started fapping again like 2-3 times again with porn but only for like a month. Felt bad because the porn excitement disappeared like in the past and gave me some flashbacks, so I quitted fapping again.
Social anxiety because of the quarantine appeared but NoFap helped me to fight it and didn’t took me more than 2 months to make it disappear. So I started to see girls again on last summer but the erectile problems became worst than on the past. I haven’t been able to have an erection during sex with another person for almost a year and it is killing me.

I’m sure is a mental problem, because I can have erections on the mornings when I wake up or even thinking about partners, but on the bed I get blocked.

I don’t know if NoFapping for so long has killed my sexuality or my libido or what really happened but I’m really worried. I’m not addidcted to porn anymore, porn doesn’t excite me. I’m sure that I like girls and I get horny when I kiss them or even talking to them if you know what I mean.

With this post I want to know if somebody has had similar experiences, how have you get over them, your thoughts and even get questions. Obviously I want you to help me but I’m here for help you too. Like I said, NoFap has changed my life in a very good way, I’m not saying my problem is a NoFap fault, but maybe it has affected my sexual education in a heavy way.

Thank you and blessings to everyone.
 
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