new me.

John02@

Member
Day 27

I think I have hit flatline. So no cravings today. Tomorrow i will be traveling so I will be busy the whole day. So there wont be any chance to pmo
 

John02@

Member
Day 28

Going into week 5. Boy am I proud of myself. Am currently struggling with handling emotions. It's overwhelming. It's too much and I need to find a way to cope. So yeah, I don't think am in a flat line yet. Let's wait and see.
 

46and2

Active Member
Reading your journal this morning has inspired me to give my recovery a more serious effort! Thanks for that. Have a good day man and keep up the awesome work!
 

46and2

Active Member
Nothing more inspiring than to hear a young person taking control of their life! Get to the other side of this and who knows the possibilities that will open up to you!!
 

John02@

Member
Day 30

That's a milestone for me.
One part that really changed is my love life. Am not in any relationship. Previously I was this needy guy who would date any girl. But now am really selective. Am not needy anymore and I feel like a girl should deserve my time and attention. I shouldn't just give it to them.
I have made a lot of lady friends and I am learning a lot from that. I used to treat them as these beautiful innocent angels but I have seen the side of every of women that they don't show to guys. The childish, selfish, attention seeking... And all this has made me look and appreciate women in a healthy way not in some fantasy.

Besides that everything is well. Low to none cravings. If I can see something tempting, I get reminded of PMO and I get a slight urge, if I ignore it, I will be fine after a minute. I will even forget about that urge after a minute.
 

John02@

Member
Day 31

Am in my second month now. Am having trouble with fantasies. I had a girl come over yesterday. We were just playing around but we didn't make out. Am fantasizing making out with her so am trying to control myself.

I read an article where they said craving reduce significantly on day 40. So am 9 days away.
 

John02@

Member
Day 32
I feel there is a lot of semen in my testicles it's uncomfortable. Am less longer triggered by sexualized adverts or tiktok vids. If I can see and ignore, I will be fine.
 

John02@

Member
Day 33

Yesterday was quite uncomfortable. The only thing I can think of is having sex with someone. It's annoying. I try to distruct myself... I have also seen that even a hug is now enough to give me a boner or even thinking about kissing someone. It is soo annoying. But, porn is the last thing on my mind.
 

46and2

Active Member
That's sounds like a challenge but on the upside it sounds like the rewiring process is really working for you. Getting aroused by real natural stimuli as opposed to digital bullshit is a very positive sign as hard (excuse the pun 😂) as that may be to deal with! Keep it up man!!!
 

John02@

Member
Day 34

Situation is still the same as yesterday. People this deboot works... Social enxiety is close to none. Am so comfortable around people and I can flirt. And I detach quite easily.

Before this I was getting emotional for no reason, now I can get a boner for no reason, I wonder what's next. And am getting used to having morning wood.
 

John02@

Member
Day 36

Yesterday was fine, Never had any urge to watch porn or mo. I spend the whole day in my room because of the lockdown and porn rarely crosses my mind. And am not attempted easily anymore.
 
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