Hello,
I'm 21 years old and I'm a college student. I have no girlfriend and never had one. I've been using porn since I was 12 years old. I'm getting close to a decade of porn usage and also close to having more years using porn than years without porn in my life. I'm scared of the consequences of my actions and I feel ashamed of myself and vey disapointed. I'm here, obviously, because I want to quit porn forever and my goal is to achieve 1 month of no PMO. I've been trying to quit porn for a long time now. The first time I remember trying to quit it, I was 15 years old, so I'm fighting this addiciton for a long time. I've tried many things before. My best attempt, I managed more than 100 days with no porn and masturbating with 2 to 3 weeks intervals. That time I met a girl and I thought she was a potential mate. Turned out she wasn't and I remained alone. After that experience, everything got worse and worse again. This happened in the beginning of the year. I know I can quit porn, but I don't know if it will happen, I don't trust myself anymore because there's a part of me that keeps pushing me to watch porn.
Here's my plan: I will spend the next 30 days, until 23/08/2021 at 17:30, without any kind of artificial stimulation and masturbation. I would like to start talking to girls on Tinder or something like that, but I don't feel comfortable doing it, because I'm afraid of erectile disfunction and also because I feel like a zombie right now, with no emotions, energy, motivation,... If you're here, I'm guessing you know what I'm talking about. Everytime I have an urge, I will come here and write to you. If the urge is too strong for me to be using the computer, I will go for a walk. I will do a meditation session everyday to control all my negative emotions, try to spend time with people and outside, follow a diet that I have to gain weight because I'm very skinny, improve my social skills and exercise to improve my posture and my physique and eliminate some pain I have because of bad posture. I will try to build positivity (positive mindset) and I will take cold showers.
It's a lot and I don't expect myself to achieve all this in this month. Just by reading this I'm already feeling overwhelmed. What do you think?
To answear Gabe Deem's questions:
Oh, and by the way, it's a pleasure to share my journey with everyone of you. I wish you all the best.
I'm 21 years old and I'm a college student. I have no girlfriend and never had one. I've been using porn since I was 12 years old. I'm getting close to a decade of porn usage and also close to having more years using porn than years without porn in my life. I'm scared of the consequences of my actions and I feel ashamed of myself and vey disapointed. I'm here, obviously, because I want to quit porn forever and my goal is to achieve 1 month of no PMO. I've been trying to quit porn for a long time now. The first time I remember trying to quit it, I was 15 years old, so I'm fighting this addiciton for a long time. I've tried many things before. My best attempt, I managed more than 100 days with no porn and masturbating with 2 to 3 weeks intervals. That time I met a girl and I thought she was a potential mate. Turned out she wasn't and I remained alone. After that experience, everything got worse and worse again. This happened in the beginning of the year. I know I can quit porn, but I don't know if it will happen, I don't trust myself anymore because there's a part of me that keeps pushing me to watch porn.
Here's my plan: I will spend the next 30 days, until 23/08/2021 at 17:30, without any kind of artificial stimulation and masturbation. I would like to start talking to girls on Tinder or something like that, but I don't feel comfortable doing it, because I'm afraid of erectile disfunction and also because I feel like a zombie right now, with no emotions, energy, motivation,... If you're here, I'm guessing you know what I'm talking about. Everytime I have an urge, I will come here and write to you. If the urge is too strong for me to be using the computer, I will go for a walk. I will do a meditation session everyday to control all my negative emotions, try to spend time with people and outside, follow a diet that I have to gain weight because I'm very skinny, improve my social skills and exercise to improve my posture and my physique and eliminate some pain I have because of bad posture. I will try to build positivity (positive mindset) and I will take cold showers.
It's a lot and I don't expect myself to achieve all this in this month. Just by reading this I'm already feeling overwhelmed. What do you think?
To answear Gabe Deem's questions:
- Did I use porn today? I did use porn today.
- What were my triggers? My triggers where a television show that had pretty girls. You know the rest.
- How did I soothe my anxiety or stress? With porn, which only increased it. I then calmed myself down, by joining this nation, starting this thread and establishing some goals.
- What am I grateful for today? I'm grateful that this site exists and I can share my problems with you.
- Day counter! 0 days on my belt.
Oh, and by the way, it's a pleasure to share my journey with everyone of you. I wish you all the best.
