Please, no more...

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Day 23
I am a fuck up
I did so well and relapsed last week
I gave in - watched porn and masturbated twice
I feel like shit
What the hell is wrong with me?

I actually know what the problem is... I am fucking lonely
I went looking for some type of interaction and ended up on a chat room where I got tempted
An innocent chat turned to sex and porn and followed

How do you guys do it?
It sucks not having a friend to talk too.
My wife does not understand. She does not struggle with these types of problems / addictions. I am way too embarrassed to admit to her that I am failing.

I can only pray that God can forgive me and give me the strength to overcome this

 

[Noah]

What's wrong with you is the same thing that's wrong with all of us. We're addicted. We're going to fail once in a while because our brain chemistry is working against us. It can feel sometimes like we're completely powerless, but I believe that we can overcome it. There are so many success stories on here.

Have you considered joining a 12-step group? Sexaholics Anonymous is suitable for people with porn addictions, and I know quite a few people who have gone through the program to great success. If you are feeling alone in this, it might help. Send me a DM if you want more information. I haven't done it myself, but I could point you in the right direction.