If this couldn't have gotten any worse I know find out th girl that I like likes me and wants to date. its obvious to me that a relationship is oit of the question given that I don't know how long this going to take given that I spent 3 years conditioning myself to a porn that doesn't even match my godamn orientation. So right now idk what the hell to say other or ther than saying I can't have one rn..given that she'll be abroad next semester I can push this off for 8 months but expecting the worst I don't what postions I'll be in then. This fucking sucks...