Confused - Need advice

Djole

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Hello everyone! :)

I'm 22yo. I masturbate since i was 10. I still remember my very first arousal and that was one photo of nice legs in stockings and heels. Later that year i found pictures of naked women in my dad's computer. I don't remember when exactly i got high speed internet but i know i have it for more than 5 years. I developed some very strange fetishes. Some of them are really extreme. In beginning i started with foot fetish, later i got into femdom and so on. I used to cum few times a day, but also sometimes to masturbate literally more than 12 hours with hundreds of edges. I never could stop at one orgasm, i always wanted as many as possible.
First time i had sex with my girlfriend I didn't have any erection problems, but that was when i was 15 and I think I didn't developed porn addiction yet. Now is different story. I have problem to sleep with girls. With every girl i slept first few times i couldn't have erection.
As i was in femdom (maybe i am still into it and i still consider myself as submissive in sexual way), i tried some bdsm stuff with one domina (dominant woman). I couldn't have erection not a single time we was together and that was between 5 and 10 times we met. I had erections when i fantasize about her and things we done together but never when i was with her face to face.
 
Last girl i slept with was really fantastic and encouraged me to move on and she was telling me everyday that its nothing special etc. (I didn't have sex before her about year and a half). After some time i started to get erections and we had normal sex for 9 months. I used not to watch porn few days before i know we will have sex because I realised that helps me to remain erect. Btw i also had sometimes problem to maintain erection. I was watching less porn while i was with her, but that still was a lot of porn.
We were at sea for vacation and we had an arrangement no one of us to masturbate until our first day of vacation and that was 3 weeks of not touching my penis (first time that long). It wasn't hard to achieve because I wasn't at home for almost whole period of time and i was busy with other things. I was like animal that first day when we get there. We had sex 3 times and i wanted sex everyday. I wanted sex everyday for 2 times. But, she isn't girl who likes much sex. She enjoyed it but once in 2 days was optimal for her. I was erected many times a day for that 2 weeks we was there.
After some time she broke up with me and i turned to porn again and all that dirty stuff and i felt really bad and depressed. Then i saw this site when i was researching about my problems.

Now I'm clean for 20 days, if i can say that, because i had sex with one woman 4 times in 2 days at my 14th and 15th day of without masturbation and porn. I had ED for first 30 mins when i was with her even when she gave me oral, became relaxed and half erect only when i was in her. I decided to really break up with porn once forever. I tried few times before but nothing very serious. Now it must be for ever. My goal for now is not to masturbate until New Year. Now we come to the point of my post. Should i have sex or not while i'm rebooting? I'm really confused about that. I see it this way: if i have sex i develop sensation and intimacy with women, but i see that is recommended not to have an orgasm at all for 2 or 3 months minimum.

Please give me some advice and forgive me for my bad English :)
 
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