My Slide Into Pornography Addiction

[Illuminatic Satellite]

Greetings to everyone..

I'm a 49 year old British male with a porn addiction.

I first got into porn around the age of 16, when I purchased my first porn magazines (editions of Men's World, Knave and Fiesta) from my local newsagents. Being 6'2" in height, the guy behind the counter didn't question my age and sold me the mags... And thus, began my slide into the world of porn addiction.

I started dating girls and lost my virginity the following year. My early dating years followed a regular pattern. I'd get a girlfriend, date her for 5,6,7 months then the relationship would end and I'd be single for 3 or 4 months until I got a new girlfriend. While I was in relationships I didn't feel the need to peruse any pornographic material and would often dispose of my magazine collection, which only ever amounted to around 6 or 7 mags at any one time. However, when I became single, within a week, I would go and purchase another 6 or 7 top-shelf magazines from the newsagents. While single, I would go clubbing, with my friends, up central London... and this is the pattern my life followed. During my twenties all of my friends got into serious relationships and, one by one, they all settled down and most got married. With married life came children and mortgages, and an end to clubbing.

My last relationship ended when I was around 30 years old and I soon found myself in a little bit of a sticky-fix. Suddenly I was a single guy with no friends to go out with, so I stopped going to night clubs or bars. This resulted in no more pulling women and no more girlfriends. The life of a singleton awaited!!!

Up to this point I considered my porn 'habit' to be a very mild one. A few times a week, I would view my material while masturbating. The internet would soon change that!

I stopped buying mags and instead would browse free porn on the net and, slowly but inevitably, the amount I consumed grew and grew, though my tastes remained the same. Coming from soft-core magazines I always preferred pictures over videos and only ever consumed solo girl and girl-on-girl material. I never liked seeing 'dick' in porn.

Fast forward to today and I'm still single (almost 19 years now) and haven't laid with a woman for 12 years. The last time was a 1-night-stand with an ex-ex-ex-girlfriend (who has since married... damn!) Prior to the Covid pandemic I could find myself viewing porn on my computer and masturbating once or twice a day. Since the global lockdown and having so much free time to fill (I'm currently unemployed), my habit has increased dramatically and I now find myself masturbating over porn pics numerous times a day. Basically my days have been reduced to playing PC games, watching Netflix, a looking at porn.

I decided something had to change, and it had to start with kicking my porn addiction.

Anyhow, with that all said and done, my plan for the future is to stop looking at porn, stop masturbating and try to get a new girlfriend... And get a job! I'm considered to be an good looking guy, with a nice personality, so there's still hope for me...

If you got this far, thanks for reading. I just wanted to introduce myself to the community and tell a little of my back-story.

Onwards and upwards to a better life.

 

[Fappy]

Hi mate, thanks for sharing. I get it, all the free time can be deadly in the fight agaisnt porn. You know the old saying: Idol hands make for the devils fap things.
what has been the longest time youve gone without wanking to porn?

 

[Arantxa]

Thank you for sharing your story. Hopefully being in this forum helps you.

 

[Illuminatic Satellite]

Hi mate, thanks for sharing. I get it, all the free time can be deadly in the fight agaisnt porn. You know the old saying: Idol hands make for the devils fap things.
what has been the longest time youve gone without wanking to porn?

What's the longest I've gone? I've never really counted, but maybe a week or so.

Normally, I would go online 4-5 times throughout the course of a day, peruse my favourite sites and masturbate to orgasm.

Strangely, I would find my interest in porn flat-lining for 2-3 days at a time and I wouldn't feel the need to browse for pornographic material. These flat-lines would occur, probably, once each month.

 

[Escapeandnevercomeback]

What's the longest I've gone? I've never really counted, but maybe a week or so.

Normally, I would go online 4-5 times throughout the course of a day, peruse my favourite sites and masturbate to orgasm.

Strangely, I would find my interest in porn flat-lining for 2-3 days at a time and I wouldn't feel the need to browse for pornographic material. These flat-lines would occur, probably, once each month.

After a binge, I enter a "mini flatline" let's call it where I don't have urges for days and I've noticed the period has gotten longer, it used to be ~4 days now it could be a week, even longer.

 

[Fappy]

What's the longest I've gone? I've never really counted, but maybe a week or so.

Normally, I would go online 4-5 times throughout the course of a day, peruse my favourite sites and masturbate to orgasm.

Strangely, I would find my interest in porn flat-lining for 2-3 days at a time and I wouldn't feel the need to browse for pornographic material. These flat-lines would occur, probably, once each month.

Ok, try to go for ten days and see how you feel. 4-5 times a day sounds really bad, your brain and dopamine receptors must be exhausted. this can be reversed by abstaining from PMO, though. try ten days at first and see what results you get