Small step to the moon

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Concretesoup

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This is my first attempt trying this journal. I'm 31 and I've been trying to quit for about a year now. When I first started, I was not really understand the difference between nofap and PMO which makes me keep edging without fapping, so its literally nofap. I lasted for about 144 days, then binge relapsed. After that, there were ups and downs where PMO and relapsed happened in some different intervals, for example, two weeks of nofap, and another one week of relapsed, then go for another two weeks, then another relapsed. It keep me tiring that way 😫. So I try to get me a 1 on 1 coaching on quitting PMO and he suggested this forum. So here I am trying to get on board again with everyone. So please help me 🙏🙏🙏. Thank you very much.
 
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Concretesoup

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Day 2

Everything is under control. Small urges come and go. Try to keep myself busy with my work and sometime takes some short walk away from my gadgets. Still keep the noPMO phrase strong in my mind. 💪💪💪
 
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Concretesoup said:
Day 2

Everything is under control. Small urges come and go. Try to keep myself busy with my work and sometime takes some short walk away from my gadgets. Still keep the noPMO phrase strong in my mind. 💪💪💪
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After tired of doing my work, just get myself away from my comp and take a walk outside where I bumped into a trigger (a hot girl about to go cycling). Instead of following and thinking of relapsed, I can simply talk to her asking about cycling and stuff and we have a little chit chat. haha I felt good about that anyway. The urges go away for today. Keep Strong!! PIED or no PIED, its all depends on me!
 
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Day 3

Can't really sleep last night, some urges came but still manageable. It is my second day on intermittent fasting. It feels good waking up early in the morning and taking hot shower, then enjoying outside view for a while, and some meditation. Hopefully focus for my daily work will improve and productivity will increase. No urges this morning and will keep the noPMO phrase strong in my head. Yeah!! PIED or no PIED!
 
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Fappy

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144 days is a good effort. its not completely wasted just because you relapsed once, even if it was a fap binge. why did you relapse? what was the trigger?
 
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Fappy said:
144 days is a good effort. its not completely wasted just because you relapsed once, even if it was a fap binge. why did you relapse? what was the trigger?
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I think because I was just doing nofap, not noPMO. I thought porn without masturbation was ok. So I was still peeking and edging sometime during the day because of boredom and I was lonely with no job and no gf. So the peeking and edging triggered me into binging fapping again.

When I started reading "Your Brain On Porn", I discovered that porn usage was the main culprit that brought me back into this hell hole. So here I am joining the other rebooters so that I could get out of this again and forever.

Keep on commenting brother. Lets get strong together! 💪 💪 💪
 
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Concretesoup

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Day 4

Woke up at 6 in the morning, started my day with reading an online book, took cold shower and meditate. Feeling fresh in the morning and started my day job and a meeting. Some urges come and go throughout the day but I keep the noPMO phrase strong in my mind. And for most cases, I left my PC aka the "crime scene" when urges come in my head. So just talk a walk away from the gadgets and the urges slowly faded.

But I slowly feel calmness and increase focus everyday.

Stay Strong!! its either PIED or no PIED 💪💪
 
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Concretesoup

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Day 5

Hehe, I'm still alive today. Today, there is no PMO and no FAP. Today, I had many impulses, the strongest of which occurred after lunch. So I turned off my computer and went for a walk before driving around in my car looking for great foods. Today I meditated 5 times. I'm feeling peaceful, and yes, I'm keeping the noPMO mantra in my head. :cool::cool::cool:

Brothers, let's go!! Continue on!!
 
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Concretesoup

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Day 6

The day passed through with a lot of urges. Urges are getting crazier. I think its because I have kind of disappointment today from my job and just sitting in front of computer aimlessly browsing. But I will try to survive today by going to bed early. But still so far, no PMO. 💪 💪 💪

p/s: I felt shortness of breath, insomnia...I know it will be hard on this road but sure, there's light at the end of the tunnel..keep your head up! You'll get out one day. PIED or no PIED 💪💪
 
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Concretesoup

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Day 7

PMO - no
urges - Crazy Huge, but took a walk to a supermarket and buy good food.
Insomnia - yes
shortness of breath - yes
triggers - yes nearly peeking. have the courage to leave my computer and did something else (cold shower and meditate).
lack of motivation - yes, I simply so lazy to do anything.

I think I'm already in a flatline. I know this will pass..stay strong!! 💪 💪 💪
 
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Concretesoup

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Day 8

PMO - no
urges - come and go but not that strong today
Insomnia - yes, woke up at 3 am getting urges
shortness of breath - reduce a little today
triggers - yes, I'm using social media today, so many triggers
lack of motivation - yes
lack of concentration and focus - yes, I just focus when playing games

I'll take a walk tomorrow, its raining today. Still enjoying the flatline. Keep it up brothers!!
 
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Concretesoup

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Day 9

PMO - no
urges - come and go but not that strong today
Insomnia - yes, woke up at 3 am getting urges
shortness of breath - getting better
triggers - yes, took a walk outside
lack of motivation - reduce a little
lack of concentration and focus - getting better.

spending time with my gf today. so less time with gadgets, feels better today.
Still enjoying the flatline.
Keep it up brothers!! 💪 💪 💪
 
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Concretesoup

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Day 10

PMO - no
urges - getting smaller urges throughout the day.
Insomnia - reduced, get a better sleep. I went to sleep earlier.
shortness of breath - getting better
triggers - yes, but I just embrace the beauty.
lack of motivation - reduce a little
lack of concentration and focus - getting better.

spending time with my gf today. so less time with gadgets, feels better today. We went for good foods, and play bowling.
Still enjoying the flatline.
Keep it up brothers!! 💪 💪 💪
 
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Concretesoup

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Day 11 - Gap (10 days)

PMO - I relapsed today (mind control escalated super fast, I watched P in about 1 hour)
What were the triggers - Tiredness going back from doing some work, got some nap, but woke up and continue with social media; reddit and fb which triggered me with tiktok vids. I should've woke up and straight going for cold shower.

So I have to stay sharp to avoid binge from happening. I'll go to bed early tonight and do some dopamine fasting. So less gadgets use.

Keep on going! I know I can do it!! This flatline is hard, but I know it'll pass..

Lets go again 💪 💪 💪
 
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Concretesoup

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Day 12

PMO - no
urges - getting smaller urges throughout the day.
Insomnia - I'll go earlier to bed.
shortness of breath - getting better
triggers - yes, but I just embrace the beauty.
lack of motivation - reduce a little, I completed my work for today.
lack of concentration and focus - getting better, focus increase when I did my job.

Spending time with my gf today. so less time with gadgets and do dopamine fasting better today. Keep it up brothers!! Way to goooo
 
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Concretesoup

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Day 13

PMO - no
urges - getting smaller urges throughout the day.
Insomnia - its getting better.
shortness of breath - getting better, sometimes because of eating a lot haha.
triggers - yes, but I just embrace the beauty. can control my sight not to fuck them with my eyes.
lack of motivation - reduce a little, I completed my work for today.
lack of concentration and focus - getting better, focus increase when I did my job.

spending time with a friend today. achieve the dopamine fast for today, less engagement with gadgets.

it'll pass brothers!! keep it going!!
 
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Concretesoup

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Day 14 - Gap (2 days)

I relapsed today..will come back stronger!

PMO - yes
urges - small urges but I took them for granted.
Insomnia - its getting better.
shortness of breath - getting better, sometimes because of eating a lot haha.
triggers - social media, I spend some time and then boom, relapsed.
lack of motivation - not much work done today. loss a lot of motivation.
lack of concentration and focus - less concentration in doing my job today. but still manage to progress on some of the work that I have to do.

Calling my gf today to fill in the loneliness, took a walk outside, went for good food. But late in the evening, I slip from an urges and relapsed.
 
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Concretesoup

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Day 15 (no gap)

PMO - no
MO - yes (I relapsed again):(:(
what were the triggers? - I surfed the urges for too long before walk away from my pc. I should've left earlier. anyway I completed all my work targeted for today.

I will try my best to reduce the PMO in this 90 days target. Keep it going!!!
 
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Concretesoup

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Day 16

PMO - nope, survived today!!
MO - nope
triggers - yes but manageable
urges - small urges throughout the day
motivation - quite strong today, I manage to complete many tasks today.
concentration - quite strong, focus in completing the tasks today.
shortness of breath - reduce, its getting better than before. I have to wake up early to get myself better schedule myself each day.

Keep on going brothers!!! 💪 💪 💪
 
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Concretesoup

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Day 17

PMO - no, yeahhh!!
MO - no
morning wood - yeah
triggers - so little today
urges - less
motivation - getting more than before, I contacted a lot of people today to complete my work.
concentration - a little bit disturbed with games ahaha
shortness of breath - getting better.

This will surely pass!! Keep on going!!! 💪 💪 💪
 
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