Dakota coffman
Member
Well brand new to here, figured I would give it a try. So the first time I ever masturbated was at 10 years old. Didn't look at porn just started to masturbate. I liked the sensualism of it.. I was raised in church and knew the morales and standards that I needed to keep. Well the problem got worse as I got older and progressed to where I was doing it some 6-7 times a day when I was by myself. And each time feeling a sense of regret because I knew what was right and I knew what was wrong. I realized I had a problem obviously when I tried to stop and couldn't, but ultimately when I got back into church after high school in my first year of college is when my journey with this really began and I awoke to the stemming problem that I had that was hindering me not only mentally but also spiritually. And idk some of y'all might not agree with it being sin but that's not what I came here for. I came here because I'm putting this thing behind me, and will more than likely need some encouragement about it. There's been times when I would literally get mad at God and question why he wasn't helping me, why he wouldn't helps come past this. And honestly sometimes it feels like I'm just stuck between a rock and a hard place, not moving forward at any pace but just seem to be falling back into that same ole thing that Sears images into my mind and making me think thoughts I don't want to think. But enough of the depressing soap box, lol. After the last time it happened I made up in my mind that I was changing and that it would be the last time. And if you have any tips that would help occupy my mind when theses temptations come, besides prayer. They would sure be greatly appreciated.
