Man where do I start. I’m 21 years old I’ve had a unique journey. I first found out about PIED in 2019, did a full 90 day recovery but never was able to test out my Ed during a sexual experience because the fear of it happening again. Then I began M and PMO 2-3 times a week and it has been on and off until current time
fast forward to now, I’ve been in a relationship for about a year, in the beginning we took it slow and we got to the point where we were having sex, I had really good days, and some bad days. But the bad days I had watched porn either that week or weeks. Lately things have been bad. I quit watching porn all together, I never abused it, just 2-3 times a week casually and it never escalated to violence or anything past the categories offered on the PH page. I’ve been about a month clean, and it’s been a constant flatline, serious dead dick syndrome. I’m able to get morning wood. And the past two sexual encounters with my Gf I lost my erection right before we attempted intercourse. Then we’ll attempt oral and I’ll O completely soft. Afterwards we’ll be laying in bed, and she’ll ask what’s wrong. Deep down I’m almost on the urge if tears, because she has done nothing wrong, and doesn’t know what’s really going on. I just say I’m stressed and I beat myself up too much. I was hoping to be able to tackle this without telling here about my flatline/reboot. She’s coming down tomorrow night to visit and throughout the day I go through phases where I’m convinced myself that I’ll tell her, and then phases where I feel as if I can’t. We love each other more then anything, but I have tears in my eyes even thinking about telling her as I type this. I don’t know what I’m afraid of, disappointing her, thinking it’ll hurt her, losing her, or just plain embarrassment. Anyways I would appreciate any advice, do’ and dont’s, personal stories, and what I should continue doing all together. My hearts out to every man/women teen/adult going through this. May we all succeed and guide one another
fast forward to now, I’ve been in a relationship for about a year, in the beginning we took it slow and we got to the point where we were having sex, I had really good days, and some bad days. But the bad days I had watched porn either that week or weeks. Lately things have been bad. I quit watching porn all together, I never abused it, just 2-3 times a week casually and it never escalated to violence or anything past the categories offered on the PH page. I’ve been about a month clean, and it’s been a constant flatline, serious dead dick syndrome. I’m able to get morning wood. And the past two sexual encounters with my Gf I lost my erection right before we attempted intercourse. Then we’ll attempt oral and I’ll O completely soft. Afterwards we’ll be laying in bed, and she’ll ask what’s wrong. Deep down I’m almost on the urge if tears, because she has done nothing wrong, and doesn’t know what’s really going on. I just say I’m stressed and I beat myself up too much. I was hoping to be able to tackle this without telling here about my flatline/reboot. She’s coming down tomorrow night to visit and throughout the day I go through phases where I’m convinced myself that I’ll tell her, and then phases where I feel as if I can’t. We love each other more then anything, but I have tears in my eyes even thinking about telling her as I type this. I don’t know what I’m afraid of, disappointing her, thinking it’ll hurt her, losing her, or just plain embarrassment. Anyways I would appreciate any advice, do’ and dont’s, personal stories, and what I should continue doing all together. My hearts out to every man/women teen/adult going through this. May we all succeed and guide one another