Made a small mistake, didn't let it break me, kept moving forward

[bakahatsu23]

Today I found some sexually stimulating imagery. I knew what I was doing when I kept searching to find the source of said imagery, and actively went for it. This is a mistake, and something I hope not to repeat in the future, but I'm glad I have learned from it. I found one image (on my phone, which I don't have a porn blocker for unfortunately), but before I did anything I left and removed it from my history. I'm proud of myself for not taking it further, even if I didn't need to put myself in that dangerous situation in the first place. If anything similar happens to you fellas, just remember, nothing is worse than actually masturbating to that imagery, and looking for more. Even if you've stumbled, made a mistake and searched for it, you have the power to put it down and remember why you're doing this in the first place. Stay strong, brothers, we can make it out together.

 

[DLS184]

May the force be with you my young padawan

 

[CBU]

I feel you. I felt that I made a mistake today when I commented on a hot girls facebook image. She answered my comment in a tempting way, but somehow I felt that this messed up my head. This mistake somehow made me want more digital interaction with hot women and I feel like it's the pathway that leads to more sexual imagery and eventually to porn. I don't know how you feel about this?

I've been PMO free now for 42 days, I consider having a relapse on day 12 when I MO'ed to porn fantasies. I have been clean since then and feel like I'm getting my life back after so many years. Keep up the spirit!

 

[bakahatsu23]

I feel you. I felt that I made a mistake today when I commented on a hot girls facebook image. She answered my comment in a tempting way, but somehow I felt that this messed up my head. This mistake somehow made me want more digital interaction with hot women and I feel like it's the pathway that leads to more sexual imagery and eventually to porn. I don't know how you feel about this?

I've been PMO free now for 42 days, I consider having a relapse on day 12 when I MO'ed to porn fantasies. I have been clean since then and feel like I'm getting my life back after so many years. Keep up the spirit!

I actually relapsed the very same day because I was on a very dangerous thought spiral and had a lot of temptations, to the point where I didn't try to stop myself; it was already over by the time I started thinking about it a second time unfortunately.

Thankfully the relapse didn't hurt nearly as much as it did last time, where I was suicidal for a whole week, but I'm still certainly feeling the pains. I know I can do this, and this time I'll make it further than a month, I'm not game to say I'll make it the rest of my life but I know I'm improving and I'll get there soon. You stay strong too brother, and remember that the porn is not worth it, as much as you want to believe it is.

Also, I personally feel like this: If you were messaging that woman for an actual attempt at a sexual relationship, not just for the feel good chemicals you get from talking to lots of hot women for no real reason, then there's not actually much of a problem. As long as you're actually intending to do something other than get a surge of dopamine, and it doesn't mimic your porn addiction (doom scrolling through youtube for a thumbnail with boobs or something, cycling through facebook posts for something new and interesting, etc) I don't think you need to feel bad. That's just me though, whatever works for you is what you should do; this addiction is non-linear, just like the recovery, everyone has it different with some basic similarities.

 

[Fappy]

Today I found some sexually stimulating imagery. I knew what I was doing when I kept searching to find the source of said imagery, and actively went for it. This is a mistake, and something I hope not to repeat in the future, but I'm glad I have learned from it. I found one image (on my phone, which I don't have a porn blocker for unfortunately), but before I did anything I left and removed it from my history. I'm proud of myself for not taking it further, even if I didn't need to put myself in that dangerous situation in the first place. If anything similar happens to you fellas, just remember, nothing is worse than actually masturbating to that imagery, and looking for more. Even if you've stumbled, made a mistake and searched for it, you have the power to put it down and remember why you're doing this in the first place. Stay strong, brothers, we can make it out together.

exactly. theres that part of your non-porn fucked brain that can tell you to stop it. just need to pay attention to it. that part of the brain is always right