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I discovered this website in early 2020. I wasn't very active on the forum, but I read all there is to read about PIED and recovery: I read Your Brain on Porn, and read hundreds of success stories, so I'm well educated on the subject.
In 2020, I joined this forum to heal my lifelong ED. I successfully stayed away from P and M for 19 months with zero relapse, and even went hard mode for 90 days during that period. It wasn't enough to cure my ED, but I had some improvements with my libido and erections. Even though I wasn't fully cured, things were definitely better than before my reboot.
I'm back here today because I lost control of myself this week. I watched porn twice in two days.
I don't wanna go back to porn. I have a very strong "spiritual hangover" today, I really feel like shit. I haven't been myself since it happened, I feel extremely vulnerable, and fragile. I need to get back on the horse right away, and to keep living a porn-free life, like I did for the last 19 months. I think that coming back here will help me, I want to use this thread for accountability.
These two relapses don't have to bring me down. I'm at the crossroads: I can go back to a porn-free life and probably be back to where I was in a matter of weeks, in terms of mental balance and libido. That's what I want.
All right, let's do this! Time to get back on track.
In 2020, I joined this forum to heal my lifelong ED. I successfully stayed away from P and M for 19 months with zero relapse, and even went hard mode for 90 days during that period. It wasn't enough to cure my ED, but I had some improvements with my libido and erections. Even though I wasn't fully cured, things were definitely better than before my reboot.
I'm back here today because I lost control of myself this week. I watched porn twice in two days.
I don't wanna go back to porn. I have a very strong "spiritual hangover" today, I really feel like shit. I haven't been myself since it happened, I feel extremely vulnerable, and fragile. I need to get back on the horse right away, and to keep living a porn-free life, like I did for the last 19 months. I think that coming back here will help me, I want to use this thread for accountability.
These two relapses don't have to bring me down. I'm at the crossroads: I can go back to a porn-free life and probably be back to where I was in a matter of weeks, in terms of mental balance and libido. That's what I want.
All right, let's do this! Time to get back on track.