So sick of big talk and no action

[King Leer]

I don't know what to say or how to feel. I just know I can stop and it's such a friggin joke that I have not yet. It's strange how weak you can get sometimes though. One thing is for sure I sick of being all talk(about quitting) with no real action or success. I don't like failing at things and yet I continue to let myself fail at this. Self- care i know is a big issue. I need to get to sleep on a regular schedule though that can be easier said then done considering I most always have to use sleep aids to fall asleep at a decent time. I don't like being dependent on them but I think for now I need to be simply so I can get through my days with a clear head.

No PMO day 1

 

[King Leer]

So I am home alone this is typically my prime porn period. Typically with all the stress and school work PMO is my escape. Today journaling is my escape. I think at times I need to stop and do something healthy for myself. Many times I would not stop to exercise cause I would tell myself I had to do homework but then I would search P for an hour and a half. With this in mind it is clear I need to give myself breaks and slow down a little do the things that are healthy for me. Tomorrow will be even tougher as I am home almost all day alone and many times I drink when I am alone which really compounds the P issue. So anyway no drinking tomorrow for me as that is another issue I have. I drink many times when I don't even want to. It is time to start taking care of myself. I have been doing some breathing exercises which are really amazing and help give me a little boost when I am tired or depressed. Anyway I will do some of those now

Day 2 no PMO

 

[Dudewithaproblem]

I don't know what to say or how to feel. I just know I can stop and it's such a friggin joke that I have not yet. It's strange how weak you can get sometimes though. One thing is for sure I sick of being all talk(about quitting) with no real action or success. I don't like failing at things and yet I continue to let myself fail at this. Self- care i know is a big issue. I need to get to sleep on a regular schedule though that can be easier said then done considering I most always have to use sleep aids to fall asleep at a decent time. I don't like being dependent on them but I think for now I need to be simply so I can get through my days with a clear head.

No PMO day 1

Hang in there buddy. You can do it.

I think lack of motivation, lack of self control, and neglecting self care can be symptoms of P addiction, as it can affect the executive function of the brain. So don't be surprised that you find it difficult to stay committed to your goal! But the more times you start, the better you will get over time, even if you keep relapsing! If you keep starting, finishing will take care of itself.

 

[King Leer]

Tuesdays are my rough days as far as PMO goes but good day so far. Got through class and did some out of class lab time. Then went to career services and spent two hours applying for grants for my schooling next year. I actually took some initiative for once what do you know. Made it home took my dog to the dog park then came home and am relaxing for a while before I do my homework. Wife just got home so I would say I am on the homestretch for
Day 3 No PMO

 

[BigDog43]

Tuesdays are my rough days as far as PMO goes but good day so far. Got through class and did some out of class lab time. Then went to career services and spent two hours applying for grants for my schooling next year. I actually took some initiative for once what do you know. Made it home took my dog to the dog park then came home and am relaxing for a while before I do my homework. Wife just got home so I would say I am on the homestretch for
Day 3 No PMO

I've always found the first couple days are the hardest, so you're in a good spot but don't let that slip you up thinking you got it beat. Find something else to put your energy in and avoid boredom at all cost. Exercise, new hobbies, etc. Thoughts will pop in your head and you will have to actively block them. I like to talk to those thoughts out loud, "oh you almost got me you little f'er".

Maybe this helps, the longer you do it, the harder it's going to be quit and your reboot period will be longer.

 

[King Leer]

I've always found the first couple days are the hardest, so you're in a good spot but don't let that slip you up thinking you got it beat. Find something else to put your energy in and avoid boredom at all cost. Exercise, new hobbies, etc. Thoughts will pop in your head and you will have to actively block them. I like to talk to those thoughts out loud, "oh you almost got me you little f'er".

Maybe this helps, the longer you do it, the harder it's going to be quit and your reboot period will be longer.

Yes all great advice. I went 24 days in Jan when I first joined this form then I broke while surfing Instagram in the car while my wife picked up our food. I clicked on a photo I should not have and the rest is history I have not had a streak that long since. I already had a strong impulse I had to squash tonight from some idiotically perverted scene in an anime I was watching. Hard part is this crap is all around us. Anyway that anime sucked anyway not gonna watch that crap anymore

 

[King Leer]

Day 4 been busy today got some stuff accomplished. Tired I know that's a trigger. It helps me at night to stay off of mindless scrolling apps. If I can just get onto my shows and watch those till I fall asleep I do pretty well

Day 4 no pmo

 

[Escapeandnevercomeback]

King Leer, I feel you, man. I am not backing up my words with action either. When I started this year, I was super motivated, I thought I was going to have a few months old streak by summer and I really felt I could. Nevertheless, it didn't go too well, but this years marks my longest streak ever, 50 days. However, what I did wrong was to regret losing that streak and dread a new attempt. I had massive urges on many days during that 50 days streak and I didn't want to go through the again but the thing is we need to go through them, the only way to get to the other side is to swim through the lake. There are answers in suffering. This suffering is not in vain, it leads to something great. I'm on day 3, we got this.

 

[King Leer]

King Leer, I feel you, man. I am not backing up my words with action either. When I started this year, I was super motivated, I thought I was going to have a few months old streak by summer and I really felt I could. Nevertheless, it didn't go too well, but this years marks my longest streak ever, 50 days. However, what I did wrong was to regret losing that streak and dread a new attempt. I had massive urges on many days during that 50 days streak and I didn't want to go through the again but the thing is we need to go through them, the only way to get to the other side is to swim through the lake. There are answers in suffering. This suffering is not in vain, it leads to something great. I'm on day 3, we got this.

Thanks for sharing. I resonate with that part of dreading a new attempt as in really giving it a good go and treating it seriously. For many attempts I would just casually start counting days without analyzing what I am doing how I am feeling and why, which takes work. Anyway keep strong!

 

[King Leer]

So I had a slip up a few days ago. Proud to say it didn't go to deep though and I am right back on the wagon. End of Day 3 no pmo