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Jg1985

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So I’m here I guess that’s a start, read lots of posts, and was surprised how help it has been already, and how so many of other guys ( and gals, but you get that I mean it generically). Sounds so similar to how I am and feel. So here goes the start to a new start,

Used porn today- no
Struggled / triggers- no
How I’m feeling- nervous and hoping for the best
Days off porn - 2
 
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Jg1985

Member
Ok, so had a slow start to the day, anxious and depressed, but mood improved as the day developed, what a very productive afternoon / evening, but also came to realise how much the world revolves around sex and some what degree porn. Slightly confused about how to feel about films and tv programs with sex and nudity, and feel uncomfortable about it, not an urge or trigger but maybe you understand what I mean. Decided I’m going to do a time line of my life and see if I can find a reason why I got so dependent on porn and sexting.

Used porn today- no
Struggled / triggers- no, but confused about films / tv as stated above
How I’m feeling- nervous and hoping for the best
Days off porn - 3
 
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Jg1985

Member
Ok how’s my day so far, me and my partner ( of 5 years ) sat and had a discussion this after, and I have now come to the conclusion that I need to seek professional help. I am going to keep up with my journey on here. I’m going to better this
 
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Jg1985

Member
Done more talking with my partner and we had a discussion about how why and what my addiction is, but as always questions seem to lead to more questions and so on, I understand she needs to know as much as I do in order for her to help me with my problems and I’m happy to share. I am so lucky to have her by my side through this process again.


Used porn today- no
Struggled / triggers- no, lots of soul searching today
How I’m feeling- stable, but a lot of hurt inside
Days off porn - 4
 
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Jg1985

Member
Used porn today- no
Struggled / triggers- no, lots of soul searching today
How I’m feeling- down
Days off porn - 5
Not really a lot to say today, kept busy
 
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Jg1985

Member
Nearly made it a week. It’s funny because it seems to have gone fast, but feels like it’s been a long week.

Used porn today- no
Struggled / triggers- no,
How I’m feeling- positive
Days off porn - 6
 
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Jg1985

Member
Do you think it’s possible to get addicted to been on here? ( no I’m not been serious). Been on here a lot, it helping me a lot, definitely keeps my mind from wondering. Read lots of posts, and I want to say this

Success stories -
great guys well done and keep it up, help others learn from your success

Relapses -
at least you tried, hold you head high and focus on that fact you had managed to be clean for how ever long, and not that you failed this time. Learn from your mistakes

guys getting there-
keep going, I know it is disheartening to hear of the guys who have been successful and your not there yet, but you are one step closer today than yesterday, learn from there success.
I know it’s also disheartening for you to hear of relapse stories too, but this doesn’t have to be your story, stay strong, and learn from there mistakes, trying not to make the same ones.

so feeling up beat this evening after another tuff day

Used porn today- no
Struggled / triggers- no, but been super cautious
How I’m feeling- positive
Days off porn - 7
And wow 1 week free.
Need to get myself into a daily routine.
 
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Jg1985

Member
Hi, feeling like crap, book a covid test for tomorrow.


Used porn today- no
Struggled / triggers- no, to busy trying to breath
How I’m feeling- under the weather
Days off porn - 8
 
Jswizzle

Jswizzle

Active Member
Jg1985,

Been following your posts and seems like you're doing well. Sorry you have been under the weather. Keep it up!
 
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Jg1985

Member
Covid negative, repeat covid negative. Still feel rough tho. Keeping strong with the staying clean. Lots of support from the mrs. Hope that everyone has a great Christmas. Remember reboot is for life not just Christmas.


Used porn today- no
Struggled / triggers- under the weather still so not interested in anything
How I’m feeling- under the weather
Days off porn - 10
 
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MrTibs

Member
Happy your healthy. Super proud of you brother. This site is what helps me occupy my mind too. Or I would be scrolling through apps every free second. I can not have any down time. Feel like I am starting to flatline if I am understanding the definition correctly. But if that is true. It means I really did identify my problem and I’m on the path to rebirth/reboot!! Have a Merry Christmas Keep up the awesome work. I’ll be following you for inspiration
 
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Jg1985

Member
Merry Christmas, hope you have had a great and porn free day ( don’t type that In google tho ). Was thinking how self isolation is not an entirely new feeling for a lot of addicts. Stay strong guys


Used porn today- no
Struggled / triggers- none,
How I’m feeling- feeling a bit better
Days off porn - 11
 
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Hannibal

Member
Jg1985 said:
Merry Christmas, hope you have had a great and porn free day ( don’t type that In google tho ). Was thinking how self isolation is not an entirely new feeling for a lot of addicts. Stay strong guys


Used porn today- no
Struggled / triggers- none,
How I’m feeling- feeling a bit better
Days off porn - 11
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Sounds le you're doing brilliantly. Good on you. Keep going
 
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Jg1985

Member
Was feeling very rough today, spent most of the day in bed.
Used porn today- no
Struggled / triggers, no triggers
How I’m feeling- still feeling rough
Days off porn - 12
 
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Jg1985

Member
finding it hard to post every day, not sure what to say, or more like not sure how to express myself, which maybe the reason I ended up in this mess in the first place. I have alway internalised my iusses and problems. The more I think the more I get lost, but to quote Winston Churchill “ if your going through hell, keep going”. I checked out his quote to make sure it was right, while doing so I think I have found an even better one

“Attitude is a little thing that makes a big difference,”

Used porn today- no
Struggled / triggers, no triggers,
How I’m feeling- getting better
Days off porn - 13
 
Jswizzle

Jswizzle

Active Member
Jg1985,

It's okay if you don't have much to say. I'm following you anyway 🙂. It's the doing/or not doing where it counts (Day 13). Love both of the quotes. Churchill was the man. Glad you are feeling better physically. Being sick sucks. One day at a time my friend.
 
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