Hey everyone. I’ve been here before. Started bout Feb. 2021. Made it several months easily, because I was quite distracted and broken hearted. That fizzled out and I slowly fell back into MO, and most recently now within the last Month back in to PMO. I don’t want to be addicted to it, I made it close to 8 months without Porn, and like 4 months without MO, but I gave it. I seriously miss that time that I felt so good that I wasn’t constantly crushed under shame of falling. Now I’m overwhelmed to start again because I feel like it’s gonna get so long to get to the point I was at before. I just crashed hard today, tonight really. And I want to work my way back. I don’t want to spend a whole new year stuck in this rut. But I’m scared I’ll make it two weeks, and just give in. Anyhow, I appreciate you guys, I’ll try to get back to posting every night on here, and reading others journals. Please reach out if you feel comfortable doing that. I’d love to have someone to talk to about getting through this, even somebody on here to be accountable to. This is the start of Day 1. I know I’ll be struggling with the chaser effect tomorrow and the whole next two weeks, my plan is to get back into reading YBOP website and watching RN videos and such, just trying to remind myself of all the stuff I learned earlier this year. I know my hyperfrontality is a big problem. I get it stuck in my head that oh that would be a new thing to try, or see, or experience. And then I can’t say no. Anyway. More to come I’m sure. Night.
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