I turned 24 last December and I can't believe I've still struggling with PMO at this age. It breaks my heart Everytime I think about it.
I saw my first piece of porn material when I was about 14 years old. It began as something I could control. Unfortunately as I continued watching, it has become an addiction.
So I've been on a journey to recovery since 2015. But I've had long periods of relapse. The longest I've gone without PMO was about 62 days from October 2020 to January 28 2021 and I relapsed due to the TikTok silhouette challenge.
I realize though that the only reason I cold stay off porn for that long was because of a routine I developed.
- Sleep by 10pm
- wake up by 5am
- work out
- watch motivation videos
- Work my ass off during the day
But all this stopped after the relapse and my it's been shit ever since..
Since then, I've had periods where I stay off it for a few weeks but then I relapse.
I've also noticed that whenever I'm stressed, a cascade of events just starts that leads me back into the cycle. This has lead me to loose interest in my daily activities, have periods of depression and miss school activities.
It's almost like I've trained my mind that no matter how hard I try, I'll always relapse...
This year, I have chosen to believe it's not true and this is a battle people have won in the past. So I'm commiting again to stop for good.
My plan
1. Document my progress here every day
2. Try to find more healthy ways to destress
3. Remind myself whenever there's an urge why I absolutely can not watch porn
4. Monitor my progress using an app I just downloaded (Quitzilla)
Hopefully this time, I'm one of the success stories
Wish me luck
I saw my first piece of porn material when I was about 14 years old. It began as something I could control. Unfortunately as I continued watching, it has become an addiction.
So I've been on a journey to recovery since 2015. But I've had long periods of relapse. The longest I've gone without PMO was about 62 days from October 2020 to January 28 2021 and I relapsed due to the TikTok silhouette challenge.
I realize though that the only reason I cold stay off porn for that long was because of a routine I developed.
- Sleep by 10pm
- wake up by 5am
- work out
- watch motivation videos
- Work my ass off during the day
But all this stopped after the relapse and my it's been shit ever since..
Since then, I've had periods where I stay off it for a few weeks but then I relapse.
I've also noticed that whenever I'm stressed, a cascade of events just starts that leads me back into the cycle. This has lead me to loose interest in my daily activities, have periods of depression and miss school activities.
It's almost like I've trained my mind that no matter how hard I try, I'll always relapse...
This year, I have chosen to believe it's not true and this is a battle people have won in the past. So I'm commiting again to stop for good.
My plan
1. Document my progress here every day
2. Try to find more healthy ways to destress
3. Remind myself whenever there's an urge why I absolutely can not watch porn
4. Monitor my progress using an app I just downloaded (Quitzilla)
Hopefully this time, I'm one of the success stories
Wish me luck