Back after a long hiatus

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Oldnewguy

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Hey guys. I’m 10 days clean into this. I’m moving my journal from the main page to over here. Copying and Pasting my first post 10 days ago. I’ll be checking in here daily:



Hey everyone-

40 something guy here who has attempted this a few years ago (and obviously failed). Back to try it again. My main reason is my marriage has so many wonderful aspects, except for intimacy. I want to do this for myself, but also my partner. I will be trying to frequently check in with my progress. Thankful this place is still here. Good to be back
 
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Oldnewguy

Member
I’ve been porn, P, PMO, Psub, and fantasy free for 10 days. My story is very similar to many people’s on this forum.
Flatline is real. Been pretty much dead down there for a good few days now. Encouraging to hear about people having a return of sex drive and libido for real women and partners. I want that for myself and also for my wife of 13 years. I want her to feel attractive and not wonder why we have everything in our relationship except for intimacy. I have an accountability partner and am posting daily progress.
 
Takeoff

Takeoff

Member
Welcome, glad you're down this path again.
Oldnewguy said:
my marriage has so many wonderful aspects, except for intimacy
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I've experienced this in a relationship too, I know how terrible it can get.
It's definitely gonna get better with time my man.
Good job and I wish you luck!
 
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Oldnewguy

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15 days. Feel like I’m seeing things in a more clear light. Not feeling depressed, better energy. Got some things done and worked on some new music. Went for a run with my wife & had a good conversation.
 
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Oldnewguy

Member
20 days clean. I was tempted to initiate with my wife yesterday but had anxiety about whether or not I would still have ED. I’m still feeling flat line, but I think that was a good sign. Years of this shit have taken a toll apparently. Still free from PMO, MO, Psub, and fantasy. Biggest benefits so far are more clarity, less guilt, better sleep, occasional morning wood. Not really feeling any temptation and feeling good to be not engaging in behavior that damages myself and those I love. It’ll be 3 weeks tomorrow.
 
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