I've been masturbating since the age of 14, continued doing it till the age of 22 but one thing to mention is i was fapping to fantasy and imagination. I had 3 girlfriends in the past and had some very successful sexual encounters. After the age of 22 I started watching porn and i must say i was the fan of novelty, so everyday i would consume alot of time to find the video i wanted to fap to. As a result, this search of novelty brought me pied in a very short time let's say in 1.5 years. Keep in mind guys it's not about years or months, its about novelty you seek. It can destroy your brain in even 6 months (saying from experience). I'm not including any triggers here.
I came to know about my pied slowly with the time. My desire for sex was lessening everyday and the the hottest girls/women were no longer hottest to me. I had a hard time getting my little man up( it took a lot of effort to get it up). If i managed to get it hard and had sex, then it would never be ready for the second round. My penis was not responding to her touches even.
I went to a local doctor, he advised me to take small doses of cialis, slidenafil, as he concluded that the problem is with the blood flow to genitals. These pills didn't work. I went further to a urologist for checkup and he prescribed me some tests such as thyroid, cbc,lipid profile, LFT etcetera. I tell you flatly, it looked rubbish to me as i got those tests done before. I thought involuntarily, this urologist is a fuckin idiot, he can't solve my problem. I came out of the hospital, threw my consultation file in the drain outside and came back home. Upon coming home, i desperately started searching over the internet saying " i have zero libido/ my sexual desire is gone". There were some videos on youtube suggesting that stress/depression can be the reason for that but i knew i had no stress/depression.
I was diving deeper and deeper into the pool of internet for the solution. I started relating myself with the results that appeared. Some said diabetes can be the reason of this suppressed libido, so i thought i had sugar/diabetes for a moment, then denied it the other moment.
Now i was searching and searching until i found a video on YouTube under the channel "covenant eyes". The title was "WARNING: porn causes erectile dysfunction" ( you can't forget something that had have a huge impact on your life, so i remember the channel name and video title very precisely). This drew my attention so quickly. Wait a minute! What is this? I watched the full video and all what the guy said was so relatable. I got a glimpse of the cause from here, however i was not sure 100% that this is the actual reason behind this torment. I searched about pied and i saw there were a lot of men suffering from it. I saw reboot nation youtube channel, i watched gabe deems videos and yes it was pied. I confessed now truly.
I started my reboot and i have never watched porn ever since. I never have urges to go back watch porn or the porn flashbacks. I'm free at home everyday and we are 2 members in our family me and my dad. My dad is out for work in the daytime and i have access to the high speed internet. Thus, even god can't make me watch porn lol. My future is more appealing than porn. Once im done, im done!!
!!!PERIOD!!!
it's been more than 2 months since i started reboot. I was not journaling here but i wrote it down in notes in my phone. So I'm sharing my timeline here today
I came to know about my pied slowly with the time. My desire for sex was lessening everyday and the the hottest girls/women were no longer hottest to me. I had a hard time getting my little man up( it took a lot of effort to get it up). If i managed to get it hard and had sex, then it would never be ready for the second round. My penis was not responding to her touches even.
I went to a local doctor, he advised me to take small doses of cialis, slidenafil, as he concluded that the problem is with the blood flow to genitals. These pills didn't work. I went further to a urologist for checkup and he prescribed me some tests such as thyroid, cbc,lipid profile, LFT etcetera. I tell you flatly, it looked rubbish to me as i got those tests done before. I thought involuntarily, this urologist is a fuckin idiot, he can't solve my problem. I came out of the hospital, threw my consultation file in the drain outside and came back home. Upon coming home, i desperately started searching over the internet saying " i have zero libido/ my sexual desire is gone". There were some videos on youtube suggesting that stress/depression can be the reason for that but i knew i had no stress/depression.
I was diving deeper and deeper into the pool of internet for the solution. I started relating myself with the results that appeared. Some said diabetes can be the reason of this suppressed libido, so i thought i had sugar/diabetes for a moment, then denied it the other moment.
Now i was searching and searching until i found a video on YouTube under the channel "covenant eyes". The title was "WARNING: porn causes erectile dysfunction" ( you can't forget something that had have a huge impact on your life, so i remember the channel name and video title very precisely). This drew my attention so quickly. Wait a minute! What is this? I watched the full video and all what the guy said was so relatable. I got a glimpse of the cause from here, however i was not sure 100% that this is the actual reason behind this torment. I searched about pied and i saw there were a lot of men suffering from it. I saw reboot nation youtube channel, i watched gabe deems videos and yes it was pied. I confessed now truly.
I started my reboot and i have never watched porn ever since. I never have urges to go back watch porn or the porn flashbacks. I'm free at home everyday and we are 2 members in our family me and my dad. My dad is out for work in the daytime and i have access to the high speed internet. Thus, even god can't make me watch porn lol. My future is more appealing than porn. Once im done, im done!!
!!!PERIOD!!!
it's been more than 2 months since i started reboot. I was not journaling here but i wrote it down in notes in my phone. So I'm sharing my timeline here today