Finally getting Right!

[Unashamed]

Day 8! It’s been a hot minute since I’ve been 8 days without PMO. It feels good, but scary too! I feel like I’m hyper aware right now of triggers. Trying to identify and stay ahead of the places or circumstances where I might falter, somewhat exhausting, but totally worth it.

I was able to identify one dangerous time for me to slip up. I’m currently training for a 1/2 marathon, and my run today was 6 miles. I haven’t ran 6 miles in 20 years, so I was pumped that I was able to make it fairly easily. I was tired and exhausted and when I got home, the family was gone and it was just me to get ready for work. Man it hit me hard! But I was good, called the wife for a second, in and out of shower quick and dressed as fast as I could!

I’m thankful for the mindfulness that I’m developing. The new found resolve! Thanks to everyone here, I know I’m not alone in my struggle. I’m an addict, I admit that! But just because something wants to rule my life doesn’t mean that I have to let it. I have to much to loose and nothing to gain, I’d be stupid to not get this under control and put behind me once and for all!

Thank you everyone! Let’s kick it together!!!

 

[Unashamed]

I’m happy these number keep growing, number 9 in the books! Was super horny this morning, but even after the wife left for work I was able to keep it under control!

 

[Jswizzle]

Week 1 down and it definitely feels good! Opening up I’m here has helped me mentally make sense of my feelings, emotions and urges. Thank you all for your encouragement and support!

Had one instance today where the wife and I were getting a little intimate but we were interrupted before we could actually do anything. As I lay there after she had gone the urge to continue on my own hit me so hard… no pun intended… but for the first time in a while I was able to smile, knowing that in that moment I had the strength to actually save it for when my wife and I are actually intimate. So liberating but also scary to know that in a matter of minutes I could slip up!

It’s stupid how my brain works, knowing that I have a wife that supports me and wants me to be better, loves me and would do anything for me. But in the past, my brain has literally reasoned and justified PMO that it’s okay and not really going to hurt her when and if she finds out. Such an idiot, but shows how my brain or porn thinks and how twisted the reasoning is.

Things I know are far from over, but looking up for me and for my wonderful family!

Excellent work on the week down buddy! I'm so sorry to hear that you and your lady were interrupted. Proud of you brother!