Mental game

[Lyrch42]

I’ve been porn free for around 100 days. During the beginning I went through a very hard flatline for about a month. I’ve been able to have SO with my significant other a handful of times but I often function at like 50% and last for 2 minutes. Recently I’ve seen to enter another flatline. My junk is lifeless again and my emotions are down. I’ve noticed how I’ve let this destroy me so much inside im not even my true self anymore. I’ve worried sick trying to change anything, do this or do that, that my mind hasn’t thought about anything else. My conscious feels so heavy on my chest/body. I wanna learn to let go and expect nothing. To change my train of thought. Our mind never divide or subtract, they only add and multiply. Any thought that comes to your mind sets off an additional amount of whatever your thinking about. I feel as if I’ve broken my ‘porn addiction’ but I also feel as if it was playing a small part to a big problem. Self confidence and esteem also play a percentage role. If anyone has the same thoughts or situations feel free to reply.

 

[Wonder]

I’ve been porn free for around 100 days. During the beginning I went through a very hard flatline for about a month. I’ve been able to have SO with my significant other a handful of times but I often function at like 50% and last for 2 minutes. Recently I’ve seen to enter another flatline. My junk is lifeless again and my emotions are down. I’ve noticed how I’ve let this destroy me so much inside im not even my true self anymore. I’ve worried sick trying to change anything, do this or do that, that my mind hasn’t thought about anything else. My conscious feels so heavy on my chest/body. I wanna learn to let go and expect nothing. To change my train of thought. Our mind never divide or subtract, they only add and multiply. Any thought that comes to your mind sets off an additional amount of whatever your thinking about. I feel as if I’ve broken my ‘porn addiction’ but I also feel as if it was playing a small part to a big problem. Self confidence and esteem also play a percentage role. If anyone has the same thoughts or situations feel free to reply.

Stay hard my friend..you need more time , if you return to pmo distroy 100 day progres! Stay hard good day return in time !

 

[Alex_H]

I’ve been porn free for around 100 days. During the beginning I went through a very hard flatline for about a month. I’ve been able to have SO with my significant other a handful of times but I often function at like 50% and last for 2 minutes. Recently I’ve seen to enter another flatline. My junk is lifeless again and my emotions are down. I’ve noticed how I’ve let this destroy me so much inside im not even my true self anymore. I’ve worried sick trying to change anything, do this or do that, that my mind hasn’t thought about anything else. My conscious feels so heavy on my chest/body. I wanna learn to let go and expect nothing. To change my train of thought. Our mind never divide or subtract, they only add and multiply. Any thought that comes to your mind sets off an additional amount of whatever your thinking about. I feel as if I’ve broken my ‘porn addiction’ but I also feel as if it was playing a small part to a big problem. Self confidence and esteem also play a percentage role. If anyone has the same thoughts or situations feel free to reply.

you should watch gabe deem story, it took 9 months for him, i've been going in and out of reboot for the last 4 years and i'm just seeing improvments now on my behaviour and ed. you have a partner, keep rewiring with her and don't look back on what you were, look foward.

I feel as if I’ve broken my ‘porn addiction’ but I also feel as if it was playing a small part to a big problem

i'm no professional, but porn might be the cover for all those insecurities and behaviour problems, at least it was to me, and still is. you shouldn't expect to rebuild in 100 days what it took you 10 years to build.
hope it helped.

 

[Carpaccio]

I’m a reboot rookie so most people here probably know better than me. But I also read posts which express a lot of shame and guilt, and I read some people who seem almost wanting to go into hard mode in self-punishment to come out a better and less sinful person on the other side.

I dont think those feelings are productive and certainly wont help anyone’s self esteem. Instead, be proud that you did 100 days without porn. Be very proud, its a hard habit to break.

The end goal (for me at least) isnt only to break a bad addiction wasting hours of my life watching that stuff, but to reconnect with my sexuality focused on my partner. Im pretty sure a professional would say dont focus only on the act, hardness and what you cant do. Focus on the intimacy that you can share with your partner, relax and live the moment.

But remember to be proud about where you got to. Its no small thing.

 

[Tryinghere]

I’ve been porn free for around 100 days. During the beginning I went through a very hard flatline for about a month. I’ve been able to have SO with my significant other a handful of times but I often function at like 50% and last for 2 minutes. Recently I’ve seen to enter another flatline. My junk is lifeless again and my emotions are down. I’ve noticed how I’ve let this destroy me so much inside im not even my true self anymore. I’ve worried sick trying to change anything, do this or do that, that my mind hasn’t thought about anything else. My conscious feels so heavy on my chest/body. I wanna learn to let go and expect nothing. To change my train of thought. Our mind never divide or subtract, they only add and multiply. Any thought that comes to your mind sets off an additional amount of whatever your thinking about. I feel as if I’ve broken my ‘porn addiction’ but I also feel as if it was playing a small part to a big problem. Self confidence and esteem also play a percentage role. If anyone has the same thoughts or situations feel free to reply.

You'll get there dude. When I was between say 80-110 days I'd say was the absolute hardest time for me so far. You've been going for over 3 months. That's amazing. You will slowly rediscover who you thought you were. You'll get there man. I understand how it's all consuming sometimes. Have you tried meditation or cold showers? They've both worked wonders for me when I was in deep flatline

 

[Fappy]

100 days clean is an amazing acheivement! DO NOT feel down about that, thats great and a credit to your motivation to reboot. it sounds like you just need a little more time, so try not to stress and keep going as you are. everyone reboots differently you know.