I am a chronic pornography Addict

[Win-yak]

I had watched lesbian pornography over and over for long time which made me numb my feelings towards women's..I hate women's and after watching lesbian pornography i felt relived from my obsession about lust.i feel so unworthy like I am piece of shit ..I am asexual or I am something that cannot ever satisfy a girl.i had many other fetishes like bimbo and femboy and all those weird fantasies which ruined my brain..I have nothing left in my life I was ruined by continuosly watching weird stuff on internet ..I feel so powerless over my lust and pornography addiction that each day I am hurting my dignity by watching this over and over..

I am trying to recover from this brothers and I hope I can do that..

 

[MarshDweller05]

I think one thing that helped me is to remember that this addiction hijacks sexuality. The porn addiction is more about dopamine. The dopamine tricks your brain into thinking this is about sexuality.
Once you get some distance from porn your true beautiful sexuality we emerge naturally. It may take some time though. But it's all good

 

[Win-yak]

I think one thing that helped me is to remember that this addiction hijacks sexuality. The porn addiction is more about dopamine. The dopamine tricks your brain into thinking this is about sexuality.
Once you get some distance from porn your true beautiful sexuality we emerge naturally. It may take some time though. But it's all good

Yeah thanks for the reply..I am now away from porn for 1 week and I have struggled with lesbian related thoughts.i experiance most of my collewues in my workplace are lesbians and they don't like men and that whenever soome women touch themselves around me I thought like those women's are trying to seduce the other..this are all weird thoughts but my mind has been fucked up by seeing large amounts of lesbian porn stuff and femboy stuff in internet ..and its sometimes scary to me that why I am unable to eveen think positively about my sexuality for a particular amount of time..

 

[MarshDweller05]

Yeah thanks for the reply..I am now away from porn for 1 week and I have struggled with lesbian related thoughts.i experiance most of my collewues in my workplace are lesbians and they don't like men and that whenever soome women touch themselves around me I thought like those women's are trying to seduce the other..this are all weird thoughts but my mind has been fucked up by seeing large amounts of lesbian porn stuff and femboy stuff in internet ..and its sometimes scary to me that why I am unable to eveen think positively about my sexuality for a particular amount of time..

That sounds like a really tough place to work. Women like that are not good to be around in my experience on many levels, especially if youre a dude and they don't like men period. They wont change. Best to distance myself from them.

Hope your week is going good

 

[Win-yak]

Yeah I am distancing myself from them as I don't want to have any codependency issues in my workplace .But some of the girls are friendly and that makes me open to them.but some of them are so angry and all..most of the women just run around the workplace all the time and it feels like a constant trigger for me.alsk I had urge to take a peak from time to time.because some girls look at me for extended periods of time I try to resiprocate them but all this actions just make me more and more discontent and angry and frustrated at the end..it's like I am welcoming more conflicts to my recovert part..and yesterday most women there had serious issues with men and women.like one of them said me that I should work more because I am a guy and that triggered me like why should some tell me that..To take more calls because I am a guy..
That was little bit triggering for me ..like I al ays prefer equality and want norhing more or less from someone nale or female from outside..but this type of talks make me so angry ..
Whatever just sharing some of my conflicts

 

[MarshDweller05]

Sounds like a really tough environment. Yeah good thoughts on how its shouldn't matter if you are a guy or girl or whatever. I hope you can find some good people there or find some way to get some peace there cause that sounds tough.

Keep going bro!

 

[Win-yak]

Some women in my workplace are overly abusive to me like some of them used threatening tools or something.i think they feel intimidated by me..but most of them are blowing things out if proportion and blaming it on me and being overly controlling and demanding..where it seems like they want to prove a point..ehatever I just eant to continue this job till I get 90 days of soberity and that was my wish ...I want to face the strict work routine so that I have no time to think about watching porn or have less time to be idle..
The situation is triggering as there are lot of women's some are weird and mentally proboematic others are friendly and some are having serious proboems...a mix of themm