My name is Cody I'm 34 and I've watched or viewed porn in some way or form since highschool. I remember seeing some magazines when I was younger but the addiction didnt start until I had internet. All through college and even up until now. Been married since 2016 and my porn addiction has now, as of this weekend, caused my wife to leave and go home to live with her family. I was purchasing subscriptions, talking with other women, and keeping it all a secret from her. She now knows and I have told her everything and she is beyond hurt. I have started by removing all my social media's from my phone and deactivation all my subscriptions. I have never acted on talking to any of these women physically but for what I have done behind my wife's back talking to them or giving them money for content is unacceptable. I'm just looking for some help and guidance on what to do. I know I have destroyed all trust between her and I but I don't want to lose her because I love her so much. Just lost and looking for help.