Starting my journey


Hello guys, I want to change my life into something better that it was in the past and now in the present.
I'm 20 years old guy from Poland, and I'm working on three shifts in a glassworks as a production line operator.
I've started masturbating since 13 years old (watching porn since maybe 15).
I've completed my education at highschool beacause I coulnd't focus on college beacuse of brain fog. ( I was a very good student at higschoold I had only good grades)
I didn't have life energy to complete that so I left studies, after that I thought that it will be better in my life but it wasn't.
After my leaving from college I've been hired in the glassworks and I was masturbating all the time since now.
Brain fog still exists no life energy as well.

My goal is to never watch porn again, and no longer masturbate.
First i want to reach 30 days without that.
If that will be a big success I will try another month and after that more and more.
I want to hard reset my brain, and have that life energey as I did as a child/teenager.

I'm starting from today 05.11.2022
Wish me luck


Day 1
Feeling ok today but i had intense sexual arousal, I came from work and took cold shower now it's fine.
Day 0
I couldn't sleep so I did whatI did I hope that it will make me only stronger
Its ok, thinking bout past won't change it,but i guess we can plan for futur, just dont get in bed unless u exhausted so u sleep in short period of time and therefor minimise the time for relapse

If u don't know about withdrawal symptoms, then do research, cuz they suck

Since u been addicted for long time, ur going to face a wave of withdrawal symptoms, it's going to be harr. Make SURE u don't relapse whilst going through them, cuz next time they most probably gonna be worse.

If u don't need your laptop, throw it away, if u can manage to live with the old phones who don't have access to internet do so (do your research on withdrawals before doing that tho, cuz if u get ride of internet access and face the withdrawal symptoms without much knowledge, u might not stand the withdrawals and relapse)
If u can't manage to live with that kind of phone then here's a trick:
1. Download applock master from playstore( doesnt matter which applock u use, SO LONG AS IT HAS AN **DISABLE UNINSTALL** option)
2. Get into the app put a dummy password for now, it will prompt u for ur email incase u lose ur password, SKIP THAT, u must not have access to ur password at all cost
3. Go into the apps settings and disable *unlock app with fingerprint* and enable *prevent uninstalling*
*important* : problem is that even tho u put the disable installation option u can still uninstall it using ur phone's settings app. This is why we will lock that app using the AppLock master
*important 2* when u restart ur phone, the Applock will take some time before actually blocking access to the apps unless u put in the password and this take us to our 5th step
5. Change ur phone's password(keep ur fingerprint tho), but ur not the one whose going to change it, tell someone whom u trust to change it(someone u trust), this way if u rly wanna watch, u cant restart ur phone and quickly get into ur settings app and uninstall that app. Locking all doors of access.
6. Go back into the applock master and lock the settings App.
7. Put a LONG password of 1's and 0's that u ill forget, this way u cant access the settings app nor the applock anymore.
8. Enjoy, now when u have an urge, u can simply uninstall/disable ur browser app/whtvr has the stuff u wanna watch(as well as playstore cuz obv u can reinstall it afterwards if u dont), wait until the urge goes away, go ask the person who has the password to quickly reboot ur phone and put in the password, so that u can go into the settings app and uninstall the appLock and reinstall the browser or whtvr apps u uninstalled. After that u simply redo the process of downloading the app ect ect.
*important 3* playstore has an option where u can actually deactivate/uninstall apps from it, so disable it when u get an urge as well
Warning ur brain might trick u, so when u get an urge u gotta rush to blocking the apps, before things get worse and ur desires completely take over ur brain.

Get a cat or pigeon and keep it with u 24/7,this way u might feel shy watching the filth.

It usually takes like 90-180days, for your life to start become colorful as it was before. But the first 2months will be hard, stay strong.
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^You don't have to go this far dude, don't worry. But next time it feels like you can't sleep without relapsing, do some other activities to distract yourself from the urges and get you exhausted enough to fall asleep faster


Day 1
I'm at work (second shift) and i'm filling not fine brain fog is freaking me and beacuse of that i can't focus on producing glass i Hope that tomorrow will be better.
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Day 2
Today i'm very sleepy but It's not bad as yesterday, I'm getting prepared on third shift (night shift)
It's linear, sometimes u will get good days, other times not so good ones. just don't get too stressed out when the horrible ones come, and they can last long.


Day 4
Today feeling good, still no brain fog i'm full of energy but sexual arousal didn't disappear , I've got two days off after 6 days of work so I'm going to meet with my friends.