New journal. I hate Journaling

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Josh_S

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Mom was more of a friend than a parent. Raised me and my brother by herself. Rapid cycling manic. Alot of mental health issues myself. She repeatedly let me catch her getting laid as i hit puberty. That and completely uncontrolled access to the internet led me to lose my virginity at 15 to a 27 year old because really i wanted to sleep with my mom. I had several age inappropriate relationships all plagued by porn addiction and end badly. Now i sleep on my exes couch with nothing. Never addressed any of it always compulsive cheater always degrading and objectifying older women. My ex just called me out for watching porn for two days and all i can do is sexualize everything anywau. I hate journaling. Feels belittling and at the same time writing it out gets me super horny. I am fundamentally broken
 
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Josh_S

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I aways wake up early mornings and honestly that's the worst temptation time for me. Today i mostly ignored the temptation by replacing masturbation with chores.
 
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