23 years, ED

[Anotheronehere]

(reupload in english)

Hello, I am a 23-year-old boy who has consumed erotic content since he was 12 years old and it seems that I have erectile dysfunction, but I am really a virgin due to doubts about my sexual orientation and being an introvert. I consider myself bisexual but sexually gay.

I have really been addicted to webcam models and I have also broadcast, despite having seen non-amateur scenes, I like the amateur more, in recent times I only saw onlyfans scenes and masturbation videos. Do you think it is beneficial not to have reached strong and strange contents? I loved watching kisses and soft porn, oral sex, nudity...

It's been 7 days without P or M or O, but on the fifth day I was chatting with a friend and when trying to flirt with me I had an erection and I don't know if it's a relapse because I didn't look for it, I avoided it, and it's because he's a guy who I like it a lot and that it has previously sent me some nudes. I am avoiding him and I have communicated it to him. I have also been looking at Instagram without the intention of looking for anything and when I see someone attractive I ignore them, I only see friends, and I have not had erections.

The case is:

- Does chatting with someone I like hurt me a lot in hard mode?
- Do you think it will take less than a year? My anxiety is for that reason. I don't mind not masturbating, I'm not abstinent. I'm VERY worried about how long it's going to take, I don't know when I'll notice it... For now I'll do 90 days hard mode and hopefully 180.


Every morning I have an erection when I wake up, or almost all, without an erotic dream, they say that it is normal in a phase of sleep. The fact is that I know perfectly well that it is psychological, not physical health. I want to have erections with reality


Today its 10th day, It's not hard for me not to watch porn, super happy, I'm not interested. I'm on isotretinoin treatment and I can't exercise until October, but I'm looking forward to it, foolishly it will be 90 days since I don't PMO. Yes, I'm going to start doing squats without weight, something light, I read that it's good for This process.

Bad: I keep talking to that guy, without sexual content, but I know it would be better not to... He supports me in other things...

I found out today what "dopamine fasting" is. I'm going to stop eating for pleasure, and I'll only eat out of necessity, more "boring" things and not fast food or sweets.


Are fantasies very bad? Mine, as I have said about my taste for P, are more sexually romantic, without strange and harsh things. I try not to have but sometimes they flash


Even so, I'm still in a big rush for the ED, I don't care about the P, but the ED makes me worry

 

[Lastpage]

It seems that your side effects of using porn are still light in this point, witch is good. I think that chatting with your friend about sexual content may lead you to a relapse, so be carefull. Each person takes a diferent time in the reboot process, so don't focus in the final result, but in the journey itself. What will you do in this 90 days to improve yourself, apart from stop watching porn?

 

[tay97]

Wow, a lot of stuff here. As a bi guy myself, I know the struggles about sex and porn and all of this stuff too well. If you want to heal, you MUST delete all kinds of artificial stimulation from your life.

Do you think it will take less than a year? My anxiety is for that reason. I don't mind not masturbating, I'm not abstinent. I'm VERY worried about how long it's going to take, I don't know when I'll notice it... For now I'll do 90 days hard mode and hopefully 180.

Read this: https://easypeasymethod.org/

 

[Anotheronehere]

Parece que los efectos secundarios de usar pornografía aún son leves en este punto, lo que es bueno. Creo que chatear con tu amigo sobre contenido sexual puede llevarte a una recaída, así que ten cuidado. Cada persona tarda un tiempo diferente en el proceso de reinicio, así que no te centra en el resultado final, sino en el viaje en sí. ¿Qué harás en estos 90 días para mejorar, además de dejar de ver porno?

Many thanks. My abstinence seems to be mild, yes, but ED will always seem serious to me :S In these 90 days I intend to read more and focus on recovering two topics and start my studies with more motivation. After my medication, which runs out in 90-100 days, I return to sports and a diet to gain weight because I need a high-calorie diet and for that you have to have a routine. With anxiety I lost weight.

Vaya, un montón de cosas aquí. Como un chico bisexual, conozco muy bien las luchas sobre el sexo y la pornografia y todo eso. Si quieres sanar, DEBES eliminar todo tipo de estimulación artificial de tu vida.


Lea esto: https://easypeasymethod.org/

Thank you very much. I'm following your diary, congratulations. Interesting how well it summarize the explanations in that book, thanks!

 

[Anotheronehere]

Day 13 without P, M and O.

I don't know if my reboot is good, but I still don't have any abstinence of P. Instead I almost had a wet dream, and I got an erection talking to that person, even though I haven't talked to him for 1 week.

Time passes very slowly, especially when you are a virgin who wants to meet someone and not know if i'm capable.

 

[tay97]

Day 13 without P, M and O.

I don't know if my reboot is good, but I still don't have any abstinence of P. Instead I almost had a wet dream, and I got an erection talking to that person, even though I haven't talked to him for 1 week.

Time passes very slowly, especially when you are a virgin who wants to meet someone and not know if i'm capable.

Good progress! I am also on No PMO now and the fantasies are crazy.

What do you mean with that you don't know if you are capable?

 

[Anotheronehere]

Good progress! I am also on No PMO now and the fantasies are crazy.

What do you mean with that you don't know if you are capable?

Thank you! I mean since I haven't had sex, I'm twice as worried about not having ED. I don't know to what extent I make it worse with worry and autosuggestion

 

[Anotheronehere]

Day 14.

I had a mistake, I had a nude in the mobile gallery for months, I saw it. I have deleted it along with the rest of the junk memory and nothing else has happened. I've missed the M, but we're still in hard mode. I think that having seen it without looking for it and not having used it at all has not been a reason to count from zero. Even getting mad at deleting it but I've done it.

 

[Anotheronehere]

Day 18.

After 3 perfect days without any encouragement, without the need to look for it, I saw a nude on twitter and glanced at the profile for a few seconds. I didn't see P, but I did see a nude. I find myself excited and more interested in the real ones (although it won't happen for months). It was another mistake but I don't consider it serious, I haven't seen sex and I was able to stop in less than a minute.

Extreme need for M, and therefore for O. But I'm not going to do it. Lots of fantasies in my head, trying to make it with someone real, like a guy from yesterday on the bus.

 

[sho0fl]

Hey Anotheronehere,

Try to also limit your thoughts and limit fantasies, if possible.

What I do is something that I've read on the YBOP book - which is once you recognize what you're doing you just imagine a big X crossing that vision in your mind, acknowledging it for what it is and thinking about something else.

 

[Anotheronehere]

Hola otro aquí,

Trate también de limitar sus pensamientos y limitar las fantasías, si es posible.

Lo que hago es algo que he leído en el libro YBOP, que es que una vez que reconoces lo que estás haciendo, simplemente imaginas una gran X cruzando esa visión en tu mente, reconociéndola por lo que es y pensando en otra cosa.

Thank you very much! Nice pic of Venom

 

[Anotheronehere]

Day 20

Today I walked all morning looking for a printing press, a long walk, and I finished a university project.

In the afternoon, to go to the pool I waxed my body and had a fairly instant erection without any forced erotic thoughts. It seems like a good sign, it was hard not M, still without PMO these 20 days.

 

[tay97]

Porn has zero benefits. Good job!