Just here to journal my progress. Feel more accountable having a written record. Day 11 for me but that’s not important. More focused on making my wife proud of me. Tired of letting her down. She is my motivation, she is my everything! Love for her will make this a cake walk. Relapse is not an option. Making many changes in my life to aid my recovery, painting 🖼 again, horse shoes, and dumb bell workouts along with stationary bike. Looking forward to sex with the most beautiful woman on earth . I have complete ED , but starting to experience morning wood. Lots of insomnia. Extreme urges to go back to the beast. Feel helpless at times. My accountability partner is God. Talk to him constantly! No he doesn’t talk back. Hope this journal will give some of you hope. Just want to say to Gary Gabe and Noah thank you. Fight the fine fight, and never forget it is a fight…but we’re fighters that’s why we’re here.