11-08-22 my second day on The 9O days NOFAP Challenge, the day was quite easy, I did what I had to do, no fatigue, no guilt, I still have some image of the latest videos I watched, but it don't have any power on me, when it appears on my mental screen, I think about my goals instead of thinking and attaching to these images.
I know that these images and the urges will NEVER stop, maybe we can forget a lot of images and memories but urges are something natural, they are the power that we need and the fuel that pushes us to reach our goals and to face the world without fear, anxiety, shyness, if we don't waste it in the wrong directions . A writer said once: "If you want to win over the whole world, triumph over yourself." And it really has a magical effect on the personality and how you act and how people treat you when you resist this addiction, as if we have an invisible entity that shows our strength to others.
I realized that the masturbation and porn are not something evil or damned, they were just behaviors that gives a refuge to people with trauma (violence, harassment, rejection -especially in early childhood-) and who do not had a helping hand or guidance that shows them the right way, but when the person is aware enough that it no longer works, that this refuge is only a hut that will eventually collapse, water is already oozing from the ceiling, that there is no more space for his growing legs , that there is outside a very nice houses and palaces to live, one should get out, he might come back in the beginning but in one day in the end he must leave forever.
Free at last !
I know that these images and the urges will NEVER stop, maybe we can forget a lot of images and memories but urges are something natural, they are the power that we need and the fuel that pushes us to reach our goals and to face the world without fear, anxiety, shyness, if we don't waste it in the wrong directions . A writer said once: "If you want to win over the whole world, triumph over yourself." And it really has a magical effect on the personality and how you act and how people treat you when you resist this addiction, as if we have an invisible entity that shows our strength to others.
I realized that the masturbation and porn are not something evil or damned, they were just behaviors that gives a refuge to people with trauma (violence, harassment, rejection -especially in early childhood-) and who do not had a helping hand or guidance that shows them the right way, but when the person is aware enough that it no longer works, that this refuge is only a hut that will eventually collapse, water is already oozing from the ceiling, that there is no more space for his growing legs , that there is outside a very nice houses and palaces to live, one should get out, he might come back in the beginning but in one day in the end he must leave forever.
Free at last !