rodrigo_reboot
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Hello everybody.
First of all, sorry for my english. I am brasilian and I know I have to work to improve my english, but I hope everyone can understand what I write.
I have tryed many, many times to stop PMO, but I had always lost. This time I tought about beginning a journal to try to help me beat this addiction.
I am 32 yo. I have a seemingly good life, I have a very good job as a software developer, make good money, I had always worked out a lot and girls find me very atractive, I have a fantastic fiancee and yet I have this dark thing and this sadness. There is no reason for it, but I am still unhappy.
I never had PIED, but my sexual interest in my partner seems to be ever going down. Sometimes I rather PMO then be with her. During the day I keep fantasising about diferent women even if it makes me feel guilt about it. I also cheated a lot in the past and I hate it about myself. I used to PMO daily, sometimes up to 6 times a day.
Since dicovering yourbraininporn, I have lowed the amout of PMO, but I still never was able to get more then a 10 days streak.
I have lots of triggers, but a very powerfull one is alcohol. Whenever a drink, especially if I drink heavy and get hangover the other day, I binge hard. I don't drink often, maybe twice per month, but I always binge after that. Trying to stop drinking completely too.
I believe that altough I have no reason to be unhappy, I feel a lot of times that life is meaningless. Probably the PMO has left me desensitised to find happines and life's small things. So I am usually bored, sad or angry with life. Ofetn thinking that life has no reason, that we are all just like Sysyphus with his stone. Strugling everyday for no real reason, for no end. It let me frustrated and the way to stop my frustation is PMO.
That is enough. This time I will completaly remove it from my life. I hope you people can help me.
The last time I PMO'ed was 26th october. I want to remove it totally from my life for ever, but at first I will make a goal of 30 days, so I can feel happy if I get there. I also know that I never got more then 10 days, so I will be realistic with my goals.
Thanks.
First of all, sorry for my english. I am brasilian and I know I have to work to improve my english, but I hope everyone can understand what I write.
I have tryed many, many times to stop PMO, but I had always lost. This time I tought about beginning a journal to try to help me beat this addiction.
I am 32 yo. I have a seemingly good life, I have a very good job as a software developer, make good money, I had always worked out a lot and girls find me very atractive, I have a fantastic fiancee and yet I have this dark thing and this sadness. There is no reason for it, but I am still unhappy.
I never had PIED, but my sexual interest in my partner seems to be ever going down. Sometimes I rather PMO then be with her. During the day I keep fantasising about diferent women even if it makes me feel guilt about it. I also cheated a lot in the past and I hate it about myself. I used to PMO daily, sometimes up to 6 times a day.
Since dicovering yourbraininporn, I have lowed the amout of PMO, but I still never was able to get more then a 10 days streak.
I have lots of triggers, but a very powerfull one is alcohol. Whenever a drink, especially if I drink heavy and get hangover the other day, I binge hard. I don't drink often, maybe twice per month, but I always binge after that. Trying to stop drinking completely too.
I believe that altough I have no reason to be unhappy, I feel a lot of times that life is meaningless. Probably the PMO has left me desensitised to find happines and life's small things. So I am usually bored, sad or angry with life. Ofetn thinking that life has no reason, that we are all just like Sysyphus with his stone. Strugling everyday for no real reason, for no end. It let me frustrated and the way to stop my frustation is PMO.
That is enough. This time I will completaly remove it from my life. I hope you people can help me.
The last time I PMO'ed was 26th october. I want to remove it totally from my life for ever, but at first I will make a goal of 30 days, so I can feel happy if I get there. I also know that I never got more then 10 days, so I will be realistic with my goals.
Thanks.