Hey everyone. I realized in August of this year by watching Gabes and Noahs videos that I have PIED. That's when my journey started of no PMO. I started watching porn when I was 13 years old and it was because I was a curious horny teenager. I had no idea until recently that watching porn can mess your life up in so many ways. It took away the thing I wanted so much and that is a meaningful relationship. It's crazy that you know something is bad but you continue to do it anyways. I knew that looking at porn gave a false representation of how women are and how they want to be treated. I mean you know they are paid to act in those scenes and nothing is intimate. They are not faithful at all and alot of them are married so it's honestly just living a bad lifestyle on their part. Porn doesnt have a place in anyone's life. If someone says it does then that person hasn't figured their self out yet. I hate to admit this but I made promises to myself to quit and even more importantly God to stop but it took for my ability to not get an erection to a partner for me to give it up altogether. We all have that breaking point that some thing just clicks and we will do whatever it takes to get to the other side. I'm no different from anyone on this forum. If someone told me the potential harm of using porn in my teen years then I would never have started watching. I want to say that I tried to find a loop hole with this issue but there is not one. Abstaining from artificial stimulus is a must. I tried to replace it with tasteful vids but not anything like the real deal. What ends up happening is you get bored of substitutes and start craving porn. It was something I caught myself doing everytime that's why I always relapsed. You have to fill that desire to look at porn with activities that are healthy and positive. I've always been working out this whole time with PIED. I've had this going on since 2018 I believe so it's been a minute. I didn't know at the time that this was going on. I was thinking it was because I was getting a little older and may be my stuff don't work like it use to. I was 27 at the time and now 31. I just want to say there is light at the end of the tunnel. Our tunnels may be longer than others but there is light at the end. I want to say that trust in the process and know each day of abstaining away from porn is one step closer to recovery. My name is Chandler Pounders and I'm a recovering porn addict. Don't give up on yourselves guys and gals. We got this!