Hello Crackers1, I can truly see myself in your situation regarding your confusing thoughts about EVERYTHING. I’m actually right there myself too. But I have for now, hopefully, gone through the worst part of the weird stuff my mind has telling me after no PMO for almost 2 months. I also, and still have but I’m a minor degree, have confusion about if I love my girlfriend, are gay or not, sexually confused, what I want I life etc.
I also have had, and still have in some degree, stress and anxiety symptoms but they’ll go away.
But I’m telling you, it will be better!
The reboot journey brings up a lot of weird stuff in your mind and I have also been really concerned about my thought patterns throughout my reboot. But no worries, the reboot brain is lying it’s just a part of the recovery process. At some point self esteem, virility, willpower and self confidence will come back.
Keep going, you can do this