panicked by porn

[Nexus974]

Nearly one month into my reboot and all is going well. However I had an odd experience yesterday. I was reading a book that had some illustrations and I got to a section where the illustrations were sexually explicit, essentially a porn comic. When I saw what was coming I panicked and quickly leafed through that section, not stopping until I got to the next chapter. I was genuinely afraid to look at it. I was afraid of back sliding and ruining all my hard work. I'm not sure if this is a good thing or not. Have any of you had a similar experience? Thoughts?

 

[thimbuk2]

You did the right thing by not entertaining the idea to spend time there. This is tricky, and it is ever so subtle. Images like you described are more prevalent in our advertising and all over the web. Hell, even the news sites will have an article about so and so, posing topless. We could entertain the idea it is harmless, or we see it for what it is and call it poison to our brain. Yes, you did the right thing

 

[Nexus974]

I'm confident I did the right thing. What I'm wondering about is if that feeling of panic was a good thing or not.

 

[Havetodothis40]

I am not sure if it the feeling of panic is the right thing.  but it is something I have felt a lot.  I turn my head when watching TV and certain scenes appear. 

I'd rather not let me mind see those images.  It scares me a little bit.