Mike Lowery
New Member
I started watching porn when I was 13-14 years old, which is also about the same time I began to masturbate. I never had high speed internet growing up so I usually resorted to soft-core late night television to get my fix. When I finally got access to dial up internet I would look up images/stills of my favorite female celebrities who had posed nude for playboy, or hustler etc. When we upgraded to high speed internet, I became intrigued and fascinated by hardcore porn, and would neglect my studies for hours to watch porn and masturbate continuously. Over the years, I have noticed that my tastes in porn have changed, I found myself suddenly interested weird fetishes and BDSM. Things further progressed when I discovered cam sites (where normal everyday girls could become porn stars from the comfort of their own bedrooms). These particular sites took my addiction to a whole new level, not only was this porn, but it was porn on a personal/ social level that completely toyed with my emotions (needless to say I got too involved/ carried away). Currently I am 25 years old, and till this day I still constantly think/fantasize about porn and sex, and as a result I masturbate in excess of 7-10 times a day. As expected I have the usual symptoms associated with excessive porn use and masturbation. At this point in time I can't help but feel I am doomed, and destined for a life filled with porn and masturbation. My behavior is not only distracting me but its interfering with my studies, social life, and family life. I absolutely hate that I've let myself get to this point, but I am taking the first initiative and admitting I have a problem, and that I need help. I want to set myself free and feel normal again. I welcome any and all advice as I begin my reboot on this 11th day of November 2014. Thanks for reading.