Hi, I am from Poland, and my english isn't as good as I wanted to. So forgive me for all errors in vocabulary and in writing.
I am 18 yers old. My experience with this addiction have been lasting for 4 years. It was verry dark time of my life. I started to do that when I was 14. I became doing it becouse of my curiosity, because my mates from school was doing it( they are still pround of doing it). So i wanted to try how it taste. During this time, my life has been destroyed. I lost almost all of my friend and i couldn't make new. I was so nervous all the time. I started to study in secoundary school in bio-chemistry class, because I was dreaming about study medicine (now i know that now it isn't possible becouse of M. i would like to try enrol to medical unoversity next year). I had a lot of problems with studying becouse I couldn't focus on books more than 20 minutes. My life wasn't interesing.
But in March I finished with this addiction. I had 5,5 mounth of clean time. But I wasn't free. I had a lot of depression time and thinking about soucide. Holidays was a trial of persistent. Unfortunately I felt in the middle of August 4 times. It was hard time but I standed up and now i've almost 3 months of abstinence. But in May I'm having a final school exam and I would like to pass as best as I could and i decided to try absolutely finish with this behaviour. I'm writting here because a would like to share my feelings and asks to other users.
Iszteq.
I am 18 yers old. My experience with this addiction have been lasting for 4 years. It was verry dark time of my life. I started to do that when I was 14. I became doing it becouse of my curiosity, because my mates from school was doing it( they are still pround of doing it). So i wanted to try how it taste. During this time, my life has been destroyed. I lost almost all of my friend and i couldn't make new. I was so nervous all the time. I started to study in secoundary school in bio-chemistry class, because I was dreaming about study medicine (now i know that now it isn't possible becouse of M. i would like to try enrol to medical unoversity next year). I had a lot of problems with studying becouse I couldn't focus on books more than 20 minutes. My life wasn't interesing.
But in March I finished with this addiction. I had 5,5 mounth of clean time. But I wasn't free. I had a lot of depression time and thinking about soucide. Holidays was a trial of persistent. Unfortunately I felt in the middle of August 4 times. It was hard time but I standed up and now i've almost 3 months of abstinence. But in May I'm having a final school exam and I would like to pass as best as I could and i decided to try absolutely finish with this behaviour. I'm writting here because a would like to share my feelings and asks to other users.
Iszteq.
