ishanmalde
New Member
I just want to take the time to tell you about my reboot and recovery story in the hopes it may help anyone struggling to keep up the good fight. I (26M) somewhat recently lost my virginity card, to a girl (my baby 
) yesterday (28th Dec). NoFap and reboot really works!!!
My Background - started watching and got hooked on porn at the age of 17. From then, did PMO (Porn - Masturbation - Orgasm) regularly, once every alternate day for the last ~10 years. I thought it was healthy and would not harm me in any way. Important to note that, I never had any sexual experience till now.
3 months back (end of Sep this year), I got the opportunity for real sex for the first time with a elder married woman. I was very excited and thought I would rock and would have no issues whatsoever. Guess what - I would not get it up anyhow. She started giving me blowjobs but it was not working. No erection at all. It was disappointing and embarrassing. I came home and tried to find out what happened and why. Did a google search and came across similar stories and experiences on ybop, rebootNation etc. I understood the root cause. It was my habit/addiction of masturbating to porn. I had PIED. I had wired my brain to get sexually aroused only to porn. I had to stop PMO to fix this. Started my noFap journey on 28th Sept.
Initially few days were really tough but after a couple of weeks, it gets easy. I had made up my mind that I would never ever do PMO again. That is not an option to me anymore. I wanted the real experience. That became my goal.
After 20 days of Nofap, I came across this girl through a mutual and we became friends soon. Initially, I just wanted to hook up with her for sex once. And also to confirm my PIED issue. I had the fear that won't get erect so i convinced her only for a blowjob that day. she agreed. We met and the same thing again. No erections at all. I was not feeling anything down there. I was again embarrassed and wanted to leave that room and block her. This girl seemed very mature and I decided to come clean and tell her about my struggles. I explained to her my PIED issues. Best decision I have ever made. She was so supportive, and understanding. We spent the 2 hr together. She wanted to help me with this and support me in my journey. She agreed to to whatever it takes and made it her mission to fix me.
We targeted 90 days of NoFap - complete hard mode. And then start trying again and see the progress. I knew it will not be fixed soon and rewiring will take a long time. But she agreed to wait and be there for me. That was one of the main reasons, that kept me going and motivated. We used to be in contact regularly on call and decided to meet whenever I want to try rewiring.
I used to delay our meetings as I was afraid of failure. Performance anxiety also plays a big role here. I told her to not expect anything during our meeting. I wanted to start things slowly. She was fine with that. We decided to start with handjob/blowjob to see if I get erections and then take things accordingly.
Finally, We met yesterday morning (28th Dec) exactly after 90 days of NoFap. I was very anxious and nervous. Did not sleep the whole night in fear of failure. When we met, we started talking and kissing. However, due to nervousness, I was not getting hard. We decided to drink a few beers. It surely calmed me down and helped me open up. I started getting mild erections. We turned off the room lights and decided to test the erection. I had bought a lube just for lubrication just in case. I asked her to give me blowjob. Let me tell you, it was the best feeling ever. I did not think I would enjoy it that much. She was doing great work down there and I was around 80% erect the whole time. This was the first time I was having an erection in front of a real girl. We thought to try PIV and I was able to get it inside her for some time. I LOST MY VIRGINITY. I was very excited and did not want to stop. However, I was going soft during the PIV, so had to frequently get blowjobs to get the erections back. We continued blowjobs and PIV for 2-3 times. I could not cum due to desensitization (which I believe will take some time and more encounters) but enjoy it a lot. This was good progress for me and I can't thank my baby enough for being a support to me. Thank you baby
I am not completely healed and there is a long road ahead before recovery, I am going to stay on my NoFap journey. Even after getting completely healed, I am not starting PMO again. My next goal is to keep rewiring and see if I can successfully orgasm during blowjob and PIV sex.
It all started because I stopped watching porn. My brain has started rewiring. Having a supportive partner really helps. The reboot absolutely works.
) yesterday (28th Dec). NoFap and reboot really works!!!My Background - started watching and got hooked on porn at the age of 17. From then, did PMO (Porn - Masturbation - Orgasm) regularly, once every alternate day for the last ~10 years. I thought it was healthy and would not harm me in any way. Important to note that, I never had any sexual experience till now.
3 months back (end of Sep this year), I got the opportunity for real sex for the first time with a elder married woman. I was very excited and thought I would rock and would have no issues whatsoever. Guess what - I would not get it up anyhow. She started giving me blowjobs but it was not working. No erection at all. It was disappointing and embarrassing. I came home and tried to find out what happened and why. Did a google search and came across similar stories and experiences on ybop, rebootNation etc. I understood the root cause. It was my habit/addiction of masturbating to porn. I had PIED. I had wired my brain to get sexually aroused only to porn. I had to stop PMO to fix this. Started my noFap journey on 28th Sept.
Initially few days were really tough but after a couple of weeks, it gets easy. I had made up my mind that I would never ever do PMO again. That is not an option to me anymore. I wanted the real experience. That became my goal.
After 20 days of Nofap, I came across this girl through a mutual and we became friends soon. Initially, I just wanted to hook up with her for sex once. And also to confirm my PIED issue. I had the fear that won't get erect so i convinced her only for a blowjob that day. she agreed. We met and the same thing again. No erections at all. I was not feeling anything down there. I was again embarrassed and wanted to leave that room and block her. This girl seemed very mature and I decided to come clean and tell her about my struggles. I explained to her my PIED issues. Best decision I have ever made. She was so supportive, and understanding. We spent the 2 hr together. She wanted to help me with this and support me in my journey. She agreed to to whatever it takes and made it her mission to fix me.
We targeted 90 days of NoFap - complete hard mode. And then start trying again and see the progress. I knew it will not be fixed soon and rewiring will take a long time. But she agreed to wait and be there for me. That was one of the main reasons, that kept me going and motivated. We used to be in contact regularly on call and decided to meet whenever I want to try rewiring.
I used to delay our meetings as I was afraid of failure. Performance anxiety also plays a big role here. I told her to not expect anything during our meeting. I wanted to start things slowly. She was fine with that. We decided to start with handjob/blowjob to see if I get erections and then take things accordingly.
Finally, We met yesterday morning (28th Dec) exactly after 90 days of NoFap. I was very anxious and nervous. Did not sleep the whole night in fear of failure. When we met, we started talking and kissing. However, due to nervousness, I was not getting hard. We decided to drink a few beers. It surely calmed me down and helped me open up. I started getting mild erections. We turned off the room lights and decided to test the erection. I had bought a lube just for lubrication just in case. I asked her to give me blowjob. Let me tell you, it was the best feeling ever. I did not think I would enjoy it that much. She was doing great work down there and I was around 80% erect the whole time. This was the first time I was having an erection in front of a real girl. We thought to try PIV and I was able to get it inside her for some time. I LOST MY VIRGINITY. I was very excited and did not want to stop. However, I was going soft during the PIV, so had to frequently get blowjobs to get the erections back. We continued blowjobs and PIV for 2-3 times. I could not cum due to desensitization (which I believe will take some time and more encounters) but enjoy it a lot. This was good progress for me and I can't thank my baby enough for being a support to me. Thank you baby
I am not completely healed and there is a long road ahead before recovery, I am going to stay on my NoFap journey. Even after getting completely healed, I am not starting PMO again. My next goal is to keep rewiring and see if I can successfully orgasm during blowjob and PIV sex.
It all started because I stopped watching porn. My brain has started rewiring. Having a supportive partner really helps. The reboot absolutely works.
