Majky
Member
Hello ,I am Matthew almost 20 years old boy.
Until age of 17 years i was free , it means i hadn't access to PORN.
From my late 17 everything bad started , i gained access to PORN , tryed it and everything changed.
I can remember that before my addiction started i was really confident , i had enough confidence to date with "most wanted" girls around no matter if they had boyfriend or not, i dared ...
MY ADDICTION with PORN started INNOCENTLY. But it evolved in to case that i started to be insider, i lost confidence and will to socialize myself . Problems with sleeping, concentration, memory, irresponsibility also joined case. I can be happy that i succesfully finished grammar school and and i am continuing my studies at university.
Since that changed me and found what's the problem elapsed a lot of time. I randomly and luckily found 1 video about ED made by Gary Wilson. I figured that everything bad started because ADDICTION. After plenty of small relapses i am convinced that i will deal with THIS ADDICTION FOREVER and EVER. I developed my personnal plan based on experiences from previous RELAPSES.
So it can be USEFULL for somebody:
1. Block all porn sites with DHS.
2. Put great paper A4 format with things that you will gain after addiction will be "defeated"
On my paper are with GREAT LETTERS: REACTIONS, CONCENTRATION , CONFIDENCE , MEMORY , AGILITY
These things are my TARGETS , I WANT THEM BACK so everytime before ill start my COMPUTER i will read my main target LIST.- That is making me stronger to resist.
3. Power to my computer is LEAD throught extension, this is place where can i turn off whole computer really swiftly, in case of overhelming power.... I am always ready to do it.
4.THE MOST IMPORTANT THING is that EVERYBODY need to FIGURE what's going ON.
ADDICTION is YOUR ENEMY and THIS is WAR, ENEMY CONQUERED your MIND but YOU are READY to reclaim everything BACK.
Enemy want conquer your WILL and restore your addiction completely, HE WANT KEEP YOU AS SLAVE FOREVER !!!!!!!!!!!
You want sucessfully reclaim your MIND completely with your WILL which is FOTRESS from where are your "troops" leaded during liberation.
I noticed that IMAGINATION of FORTRESS helped me pretty enough while i had visions, IMAGINATIONS that ENEMY is TRYING BREACH WALLS and i must defend them and build them again to the full strenght.
5. If you have somebody to share info about your addiction and progress in "WAR". It helps a lot, i shared info with my cousin and told to him that he had to ask me each week about progress.
6.Different tasks during day will keep your mind busy. KEEP YOURSELF BUSY WITH ACTIVITY !!!!! Do something to help others if you really dont know what to do
7.Put calendar near you and mark your progress each day, you have to put 1 mark on day in calendar before sleeping.
8.I eat very healty, i can tell that candies dont cooperate with yourself during WAR. Buy loads and FRUIT and VEGETABLE. Better to start drink PURE WATER. Lesser income of sugars will make situation EASIER for you.
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In current situation i can't fall because i have EXAMS from start of January 2015 to february. So my concentration and memory must be best. I MUSN'T LOSE 1 year in school because this addiction.
This is my 18th day and i already noticed great burst of everything that i mentioned above. I can't even imagine what it will be after 90th day which is currently planned to achieve by myself.
If somebody want ask me something, about support and etc i am always available for share ideas and support. Free free to spam my POST 8)
Until age of 17 years i was free , it means i hadn't access to PORN.
From my late 17 everything bad started , i gained access to PORN , tryed it and everything changed.
I can remember that before my addiction started i was really confident , i had enough confidence to date with "most wanted" girls around no matter if they had boyfriend or not, i dared ...
MY ADDICTION with PORN started INNOCENTLY. But it evolved in to case that i started to be insider, i lost confidence and will to socialize myself . Problems with sleeping, concentration, memory, irresponsibility also joined case. I can be happy that i succesfully finished grammar school and and i am continuing my studies at university.
Since that changed me and found what's the problem elapsed a lot of time. I randomly and luckily found 1 video about ED made by Gary Wilson. I figured that everything bad started because ADDICTION. After plenty of small relapses i am convinced that i will deal with THIS ADDICTION FOREVER and EVER. I developed my personnal plan based on experiences from previous RELAPSES.
So it can be USEFULL for somebody:
1. Block all porn sites with DHS.
2. Put great paper A4 format with things that you will gain after addiction will be "defeated"
On my paper are with GREAT LETTERS: REACTIONS, CONCENTRATION , CONFIDENCE , MEMORY , AGILITY
These things are my TARGETS , I WANT THEM BACK so everytime before ill start my COMPUTER i will read my main target LIST.- That is making me stronger to resist.
3. Power to my computer is LEAD throught extension, this is place where can i turn off whole computer really swiftly, in case of overhelming power.... I am always ready to do it.
4.THE MOST IMPORTANT THING is that EVERYBODY need to FIGURE what's going ON.
ADDICTION is YOUR ENEMY and THIS is WAR, ENEMY CONQUERED your MIND but YOU are READY to reclaim everything BACK.
Enemy want conquer your WILL and restore your addiction completely, HE WANT KEEP YOU AS SLAVE FOREVER !!!!!!!!!!!
You want sucessfully reclaim your MIND completely with your WILL which is FOTRESS from where are your "troops" leaded during liberation.
I noticed that IMAGINATION of FORTRESS helped me pretty enough while i had visions, IMAGINATIONS that ENEMY is TRYING BREACH WALLS and i must defend them and build them again to the full strenght.
5. If you have somebody to share info about your addiction and progress in "WAR". It helps a lot, i shared info with my cousin and told to him that he had to ask me each week about progress.
6.Different tasks during day will keep your mind busy. KEEP YOURSELF BUSY WITH ACTIVITY !!!!! Do something to help others if you really dont know what to do
7.Put calendar near you and mark your progress each day, you have to put 1 mark on day in calendar before sleeping.
8.I eat very healty, i can tell that candies dont cooperate with yourself during WAR. Buy loads and FRUIT and VEGETABLE. Better to start drink PURE WATER. Lesser income of sugars will make situation EASIER for you.
///////////////////////////////////////////////////////
In current situation i can't fall because i have EXAMS from start of January 2015 to february. So my concentration and memory must be best. I MUSN'T LOSE 1 year in school because this addiction.
This is my 18th day and i already noticed great burst of everything that i mentioned above. I can't even imagine what it will be after 90th day which is currently planned to achieve by myself.
If somebody want ask me something, about support and etc i am always available for share ideas and support. Free free to spam my POST 8)