WoundedSparrow
Active Member
I've been an addict for 9 years. I went 27 days, relapsed, and just relapsed last night after 47 days more. You might call that substantial, but if it's anything less than complete sobriety, it's not enough for me. Especially since one relapse usually acts as a domino effect into more of them. Moving on...
Last night, my relapse took place in the living room. Granted it was late at night and the whole house was in bed and I was sitting somewhere that's usually only occupied by me, but the idea of doing it in a communal space where both I and others occupy every day has left me feeling far more ashamed and embarrassed than usual. My relapses have always been in either my bedroom or bathroom. This was completely out of the ordinary and crosses a line in my book. Does anyone else have similar experiences and how do you live them down?
Last night, my relapse took place in the living room. Granted it was late at night and the whole house was in bed and I was sitting somewhere that's usually only occupied by me, but the idea of doing it in a communal space where both I and others occupy every day has left me feeling far more ashamed and embarrassed than usual. My relapses have always been in either my bedroom or bathroom. This was completely out of the ordinary and crosses a line in my book. Does anyone else have similar experiences and how do you live them down?