Depression issues...

[sophomore]

I am currently on anti-depressants, but medically they're not the cause of ED.

I only take 2 types of medicine, welbutrin(?) and abilify

Anyways, the point is, it's been about 6 weeks since I quit PMO, although quitting MO has been not very successful.

The kind of mood I'm feeling nowadays is kind of lethargy

I'm under-motivated(?), meaning I have no motivation to study and do things I have to do as a college student.

There were two changes that I went through 6 weeks ago: quitting PMO, and decreasing the does of abilify by half to take only 2.5mg

I am expriencing a bit of depression nowadays that I am starting to wonder whether it's a sort of hangover or aftermath or side effect of quitting PMO, or it's because of decreasing the does of my anti-depressant.

I know this question sounds a bit too much related to expertise in medical field, so I'll simplify it:

have you guys exprienced downs in mood when you were in the process of quitting PMO?

 

[jts79]

I relapsed after 95 days pretty bad. Im now on day 7 again and feel really depressed also. Does anyone who has beat this completely know how long it takes for the urges to go away and when you feel like you dont need it forever? I feel like Im just delaying the inevitable and will use again so there is no point.

 

[randomrussian]

I definitely have gone through spots where things were very depressing and it was tough. Times I didn't think I would make it or didn't think it would work. You will get little signs of improvement here and there and it will cheer you up. Good luck, my man. You will get through this

 

[Poker]

How long have  you been on the anti-depressants?

p.

 

[Viper]

I definitely have gone through spots where things were very depressing and it was tough. Times I didn't think I would make it or didn't think it would work. You will get little signs of improvement here and there and it will cheer you up. Good luck, my man. You will get through this

Exactly what RandomRussian wrote.
My journal begins with the beginning of my reboot up to where I was having sex again.
But everything in between tells the real story and I believe you can relate.
It's not fun and I had no idea when I was going to get better.

I'm not 100% but as I age, I can't expect to get the raging boner I used to have but
at least I have the interest and the ability to have sex for real again.

 

[fugu]

The depression (and in my case anxiety) does improve a TON as you reboot. Problem is, rebooting is not very linear at all, PARTICULARLY if you are relapsing to porn or choosing to masturbate. Porn (obviously) will just exacerbate things like depression and anxiety, especially if you are consistently getting on streaks and then being disappointed with a relapse. While there is nothing necessarily wrong with orgasm just to masturbation, in my experience it can contribute to a little bit of an emotional roller coaster. Orgasms are powerful neurological phenomenons, and it's possible that they can stimulate some of the old porn pathways in the brain, creating some up and down emotions.

It does get better though as long as you keep believing and persevering! When I was deep into the first 3-4 months of my reboot and seeing no results I was insanely scared and not optimistic at all....and I worried I could stuck this way with depression, anxiety and a broken penis. I stuck with it though, and now I feel better than I ever have in the last 7-8 years. It's worth, and it's important to believe and the cause and keep grinding out each day.


Here is a chart of an older guy that had an addiction that was less embedded than the majority of us today. He was a member of one of the first rebooting generations, and their reboots happened a lot quicker because they were older and spent significantly less type masturbating to porn. This guy recovered in 60 some odd days which is a rarity now - most people need much longer than 2 months. However, this chart is SUPER GOOD for documenting the ups and downs of rebooting. It paints a picture of how erratic the process can be - but ultimately insanely rewarding. I would expect the same sorts of ups and downs for ALL current rebooters, just over a longer time frame.

 

[Poker]

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=drv3BP0Fdi8

The end of this video shows some useful drug free tips to help manage it.

Cheers,

p.