Gotta Stop

Nick2001

New Member
Hi all. So this is definitely not something I’m used to. I’ve known about this forum for some time, and back when I tried to quit porn a year or so ago, I found this thread really helpful to read, however I never participated.
A little about me and my addiction. I’m 21 and I’ve been watching porn since I was at least 12. As I got older it became harder to stop, and I didn’t really see a need to. That was until I met my girlfriend. We have been together for 4 years and she is aware of my issue. At first, it wasn’t an issue at all, I didn’t watch porn for quite some time. However due to a variety of circumstances, I did fall back in and right now it’s as bad as it’s ever been.
I’m at the point where it’s several times a day and every single time, as soon as I’m done, I feel this sense of hatred and disgust towards myself for doing it, and also extremely guilty because of my relationship. I absolutely hate this part of me.
I’m done with saying that I’ll do something about it and just letting it happen again. I have to understand that this is a long term journey, and it won’t be perfect, but it needs to be done.
I look forward to sharing my journey with all of you. From what I’ve read we have lots in common, so please feel free to comment and share your experience, or any advice. I’m planning on posting every few days to start so I will be back soon.
 

Androg

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Hi all. So this is definitely not something I’m used to. I’ve known about this forum for some time, and back when I tried to quit porn a year or so ago, I found this thread really helpful to read, however I never participated.
A little about me and my addiction. I’m 21 and I’ve been watching porn since I was at least 12. As I got older it became harder to stop, and I didn’t really see a need to. That was until I met my girlfriend. We have been together for 4 years and she is aware of my issue. At first, it wasn’t an issue at all, I didn’t watch porn for quite some time. However due to a variety of circumstances, I did fall back in and right now it’s as bad as it’s ever been.
I’m at the point where it’s several times a day and every single time, as soon as I’m done, I feel this sense of hatred and disgust towards myself for doing it, and also extremely guilty because of my relationship. I absolutely hate this part of me.
I’m done with saying that I’ll do something about it and just letting it happen again. I have to understand that this is a long term journey, and it won’t be perfect, but it needs to be done.
I look forward to sharing my journey with all of you. From what I’ve read we have lots in common, so please feel free to comment and share your experience, or any advice. I’m planning on posting every few days to start so I will be back soon.
Do you know what triggers your relapses?
 

Nick2001

New Member
Honestly, social media is the big one. I’ll get bored and start scrolling through YouTube shorts, or TikTok, and then I’ll see something that awakes the addiction in me and then at that point it’s really hard to stop. Technology in general makes it very hard. Thanks for the reply btw!
 

Androg

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If you tend to use your phone for this, can you make sure your phone is in another room at vulnerable times?

Internet addiction is a big challenge for everyone today. You have to be very determined to unchain yourself. 💪
 
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