Long time since I've been here on this forum and I regret not returning to share my success story, but I'm back to share my story now and to issue a stark warning to never relapse to pmo.
I was a very severe case, long term pmo addict from aged 13 to 24. PMOd nearly every single day watched for hours edging with multiple tabs open. Escalated to hardcore content and received nasty porn induced fetishes. I lost erection quality and penis sensitivity from death grip. PMO addiction was my escape from severe mental health issues notably anxiety, ocd and depression. I began my reboot in August 2019 after meeting my current gf. I had a pied experience first time we went to have sex but was most likely more performance anxiety related. This experience though pushed me to finally quitting pmo for good.
My tactic was to completely ditch porn, never look at it any content again but continue to have to try have sex and rewire.
Coming away from pmo though gave me every hellish withdrawal symptom that you will hear on this forum. I had the worst flatlines - completely dead libido, penis cold and lifeless, extreme anxiety, anhedonia, insomnia and torturous ocd including hocd and worry that porn induced fetishes would remain permanent.
Thankfully I was able to focus on sex with my gf and never suffered from severe pied although sometimes erection was weak or I lost it before reaching orgasm.
I had periods where libido returned strong for a bit but flatline came back harder (my post from feb 2020 is an example of this).
I kept on trucking for months throughout this reboot never looked at porn and focused on sex with my gf. My libido thankfully stabilized and I began to reach a state of fully recovered by end of March 2020. My porn induced fetishes were completely gone, hocd gone and penis returned to full sensitivity. I could have multiple rounds of sex, rock hard erections, insomnia gone and morning wood returned.
This was a horrific 7 - 8 month period of flatline and paws but thankfully I fully recovered.
I remained pmo free for over 2 years and life was great, amazing relationship and no sexual issues at all - I was a perfect success story!
Unfortunately I had a relapse in late 2021 after not seeing my gf for a couple of weeks. This didn't affect anything at all so I ended up sporadically PMOing throughout 2022 and 2023 although mostly vanilla stuff and maybe 2 days a week max. This never affected my sexual performance, I never escalated, I never developed pied and I had no issue with morning wood. I didn't even notice the addiction setting back in. Like all addicts in denial I though this was not a problem as I only watched for an hour max, kept the content vanilla and only pmo 2 days. I even thought it was improving my sex!
Massive mistake - After a bad long pmo session on Oct 20 I put myself into a flatline.
This scared me a bit at first but I was still able to hit a rock hard erection when I saw my gf. After a few days though this diminished and now I'm in no mood for sex unless I really push it. I have zero libido, penis is cold and lifeless, zero morning wood and anxiety is at an all time high. I'm 16 days no pmo now and my libido is completely gone. I'm terrified I've completely destroyed my brain and ruined my relationship with my gf. I have crippling insomnia, can't sleep more than one hour a night.
For anyone reading I'd greatly appreciate if anyone who has had a similar experience can respond? I went from being fully recovered having everything I ever wanted in life to getting complacent, relapsing and now I'm back in hell.
I will keep on trucking, I will reboot again and permanently this time.
I hope this post can help to stop you all relapsing - it's never worth it. Remember we are addicts and once an addict always an addict. We must never return to pmo and put all of our energy into creating relationships will real people.
Peace!
I was a very severe case, long term pmo addict from aged 13 to 24. PMOd nearly every single day watched for hours edging with multiple tabs open. Escalated to hardcore content and received nasty porn induced fetishes. I lost erection quality and penis sensitivity from death grip. PMO addiction was my escape from severe mental health issues notably anxiety, ocd and depression. I began my reboot in August 2019 after meeting my current gf. I had a pied experience first time we went to have sex but was most likely more performance anxiety related. This experience though pushed me to finally quitting pmo for good.
My tactic was to completely ditch porn, never look at it any content again but continue to have to try have sex and rewire.
Coming away from pmo though gave me every hellish withdrawal symptom that you will hear on this forum. I had the worst flatlines - completely dead libido, penis cold and lifeless, extreme anxiety, anhedonia, insomnia and torturous ocd including hocd and worry that porn induced fetishes would remain permanent.
Thankfully I was able to focus on sex with my gf and never suffered from severe pied although sometimes erection was weak or I lost it before reaching orgasm.
I had periods where libido returned strong for a bit but flatline came back harder (my post from feb 2020 is an example of this).
I kept on trucking for months throughout this reboot never looked at porn and focused on sex with my gf. My libido thankfully stabilized and I began to reach a state of fully recovered by end of March 2020. My porn induced fetishes were completely gone, hocd gone and penis returned to full sensitivity. I could have multiple rounds of sex, rock hard erections, insomnia gone and morning wood returned.
This was a horrific 7 - 8 month period of flatline and paws but thankfully I fully recovered.
I remained pmo free for over 2 years and life was great, amazing relationship and no sexual issues at all - I was a perfect success story!
Unfortunately I had a relapse in late 2021 after not seeing my gf for a couple of weeks. This didn't affect anything at all so I ended up sporadically PMOing throughout 2022 and 2023 although mostly vanilla stuff and maybe 2 days a week max. This never affected my sexual performance, I never escalated, I never developed pied and I had no issue with morning wood. I didn't even notice the addiction setting back in. Like all addicts in denial I though this was not a problem as I only watched for an hour max, kept the content vanilla and only pmo 2 days. I even thought it was improving my sex!
Massive mistake - After a bad long pmo session on Oct 20 I put myself into a flatline.
This scared me a bit at first but I was still able to hit a rock hard erection when I saw my gf. After a few days though this diminished and now I'm in no mood for sex unless I really push it. I have zero libido, penis is cold and lifeless, zero morning wood and anxiety is at an all time high. I'm 16 days no pmo now and my libido is completely gone. I'm terrified I've completely destroyed my brain and ruined my relationship with my gf. I have crippling insomnia, can't sleep more than one hour a night.
For anyone reading I'd greatly appreciate if anyone who has had a similar experience can respond? I went from being fully recovered having everything I ever wanted in life to getting complacent, relapsing and now I'm back in hell.
I will keep on trucking, I will reboot again and permanently this time.
I hope this post can help to stop you all relapsing - it's never worth it. Remember we are addicts and once an addict always an addict. We must never return to pmo and put all of our energy into creating relationships will real people.
Peace!
