I have been in and out of abstinence for many years. Made an attempt on this forum 2 years ago and left again. I’m back to try again. Really feeling awful currently. Life gets busier and busier, and the state of the world seems to get more and more chaotic. I guess I’ve used my old escapism tactic to deal with stress my whole adult life and I’m very tired of it. I can probably deal with the world/life much better if I can treat myself with more respect and dignity. Starting a new reboot and will be checking in daily. Thanks for reading this, glad to be back.