I don't know how you some of you guys do it. My discipline just sucks. The first time I held out on PMO for a little over 3 weeks, I was able to perform and finish with my wife (first time ever btw). She was very flirty with me through the whole time, it kept my mind on her. Ever since, I would go through stretches of a couple weeks, no M or O, but would look at hookup sites on occasion for the fantasy and images. She wasn't teasing/flirting with me like she did. The combo shot me down on subsequent times. A few weeks ago, I was so horny and ached to bust, but I couldn't maintain an erection. I got to a point I sat up, trying to get it hard and just cussed at myself. I was to a point of such frustration; I wanted to give up. I calmed down the next day and I started back, AGAIN, with no PMO. Sure enough, after about a week and a half the lack of discipline hits me and bam, I'm fantasizing about other girls on hookup sites. Last night I tried again to be with my wife. I was ready to go and once I got in, it died. I'm so frustrated right now. I know my goal is attainable. I read your success stories and I see you guys succeeding. My hat is off to you guys. I want that! I want that self-control. I am just so weak. The call to just go back to the old miserable PMO ways is in my head. This struggle in my head is so taxing. Where's the magic pill I can take to make it all go away?