Not sure if this is how I am supposed to go about doing this. This is my first time doing blog or journals of any kind. I'm 24 years old and have been using internet porn extensively since I was about 13 years old. I have recently started dating an amazing girl and when the time came, I was not able to express my love for her. I first thought I was too tired, or had too many drinks. However, after searching the web, I realized what was causing my ED. Since I wanted to make sure, I engaged in my usual habit early and did a morning test drive. Now I'm sure what my issue is. I didn't want my girl to think I wasn't interested in her, so I confessed my problem to her, and being the amazing person she is, she agreed to wait until my problem was cured. Today will be my day one. My whole day at work was painful. I felt like such a pathetic being. I work on 16th floor, and when I looked out the window today, I even had suicidal thoughts. If I wasn't with my girlfriend right now, I might have gave it a serious thought. After finding out about REBOOT, I saw a glimmer of hope. A chance to make myself human again. I don't think I will have problem staying away from porn. I just want my recover as soon as possible. If anyone can give me tips on how I can speed up the recovery process, please help.
My poor brain
- Thread starter thedude
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Hello bro
Life is too short. We are all here to find a purpose and create happy memories so it passes down the lane. don't EVER have suicidal thoughts no matter what happens. You have come here. you have taken an Effort. This will work! you have already started trying. I'm in the same boat as you are. I relapse loose confidence. gain it back again. i keep repeating. but i know for sure one day i'm going to succeed it.
and you cant speed up the recovery process. We are dealing with plasticity of the brain. it takes time to shape it. i just want to understand EVERYDAY you control Every single day u stay sober. it Counts. ur brain takes it into account. So dont ever feel depressed if you relapse. Find you triggers. see how ur brain defeats you. its more like mind vs body war. make sure your mind says in control.
oh by the way. meditation is a great help to see through your mind and calm your thoughts.
i don't how success tastes because my highest is 16 days without PMO. but those 16 days was one the best times in my life recently. All the best bro. and Relax...
Life is too short. We are all here to find a purpose and create happy memories so it passes down the lane. don't EVER have suicidal thoughts no matter what happens. You have come here. you have taken an Effort. This will work! you have already started trying. I'm in the same boat as you are. I relapse loose confidence. gain it back again. i keep repeating. but i know for sure one day i'm going to succeed it.
and you cant speed up the recovery process. We are dealing with plasticity of the brain. it takes time to shape it. i just want to understand EVERYDAY you control Every single day u stay sober. it Counts. ur brain takes it into account. So dont ever feel depressed if you relapse. Find you triggers. see how ur brain defeats you. its more like mind vs body war. make sure your mind says in control.
oh by the way. meditation is a great help to see through your mind and calm your thoughts.
i don't how success tastes because my highest is 16 days without PMO. but those 16 days was one the best times in my life recently. All the best bro. and Relax...