Hi everyone, above all excuse my bad english i'm french actually so there might be full of mistake 
I'm 26 years old, virgin because of ED induced i think by porn and masturbation since my young age.
Like most of person here i was a very shy kid, unconfident with girls and people, i didnt have lot of friends and was very lonely. With internet I start to discover the pornography. It started by softcore then hardcore then at the age of 15/16 i think the content was very extreme and shocking (scat-zoo-vomit-bukkake etc..) nothing healthy for a teenager but i was very excited by that and it has been transform as a fetishism. Unfortunately I was inconscient by the pain i inflict to myself and my brain... I wasnt a big dependent to mastrubation it was max 1 time per day but the content was very extreme.. Anyway my behave started to get better more i growth i was more confident with people and my study and have more friends but i had still this "dark passenger" once i was alone and even after i was ashamed of what i did but never tried to really stop and i didnt know it was an addiction. My first relation was at 22 with a great girl in France and when we came at bed i was surprised to not see my penis hard and was very upset. we were drunk so i was said maybe its that. But the days came and nothing happened i didnt felt any excitation while i was in love of her and she was gorgeous. 3 months after she broke up and I continue to see this pornography (and also "normal porn") I met some one night stand girl but it was the same so i never saw them again.. I already refuse to bring back a girl at mine because i knew it will happened... I lied to my friends and myself because i'm shame to say i'm still virgin and i cant have an erection... I moved to London last year for my work and the beginning was really hard,( no family, no friends, hardwork, lot of pressure) the porn was for me a way to relax and breathe... One day i met an escort to realise my "foot fetish" and i felt very ashamed at the end, i deleted everyting every email but finally 1 /2 week after i started to continue the mastrubation on porn BDSM etc... (and scat too) anyway on july i met a girl and i think i fall in love after 2 weeks with her, we spent an amazing time together without sex because she wanted to wait. For me i passed to nothing to a girl who came in life giving me lot of love and attention. One month after after a night out we decided to came at mine and i was stress because i didnt want to mess up with her..and it's happened again she was very offended but i told her i didnt know and she is absolutely not in cause of that... Unfortunaterly things started to get worse and she cheat on me after one month. That completely broke my heart because it was the last person i imagine do that to me... I was so in love that i took off my proud and forgive her and we keep going this relation while i didnt have any trust in her and it was aweful. I saw a doctor who recommand me to take some cialis. At the beginning i had erection during fellation but once i had to put the condom i lose my erection. Also I stop all porn when i met her because i knew it was bad for me but i keep the mastrubation under the shower thinking of her etc..but once a week . The last night with her she was on period but i was on cialis and i never had this erection i was so frustated we couldnt do it because i was hard from beginning to the en (it was about 2 months without porn) then she broke with me it has been one month now. It was very very hard because i feel quite alone here and i miss her a lot but ... at the end of the day after all she did to me ... I discover the PIED and yourbrainonporn only 2 weeks ago and i realise only that that i was dependant of porn and my brain was completely fucked up... I knew the extrem porn was unhealthy but i never realise my level of dopamine required is inusual.. It has been one month i didnt masturbate and 3 months without porn. I have my morning woods but i still have some sexual fantasy in my head that i try to hunt each time i think of that. I dont know how long would it take to have my brain back to normal and be excited by the simply looking of a woman i love or only by kissing her. If i could back to my 15 only to avoid this i wil. I'm glad that its not irreverssible and my sexuality could be back to normal but after how long? Also so far i still not feel any excitation for pretty girls i met on the tube or on the street. Is it what we call the flatline? I use to go a LOT on facebook and Tinder, is it a bad thing for my reboot? should i stop every dating app and facebook for one year? If i meet a new girl and i could try to have sex with her should i avoid it the time i would be "cure"? I dont feel any tentation to masturbate or going one pornsite because i know it the reason to my fail with my ex girlfriend i loved and that kill me because i'm the only responsible to that.
last week i had a sexual dream including some fetish and when i woke up it was completely wet. Is it normal ?
I'm sorry for this very very long text but that help me to speak without taboo
Cheers
I'm 26 years old, virgin because of ED induced i think by porn and masturbation since my young age.
Like most of person here i was a very shy kid, unconfident with girls and people, i didnt have lot of friends and was very lonely. With internet I start to discover the pornography. It started by softcore then hardcore then at the age of 15/16 i think the content was very extreme and shocking (scat-zoo-vomit-bukkake etc..) nothing healthy for a teenager but i was very excited by that and it has been transform as a fetishism. Unfortunately I was inconscient by the pain i inflict to myself and my brain... I wasnt a big dependent to mastrubation it was max 1 time per day but the content was very extreme.. Anyway my behave started to get better more i growth i was more confident with people and my study and have more friends but i had still this "dark passenger" once i was alone and even after i was ashamed of what i did but never tried to really stop and i didnt know it was an addiction. My first relation was at 22 with a great girl in France and when we came at bed i was surprised to not see my penis hard and was very upset. we were drunk so i was said maybe its that. But the days came and nothing happened i didnt felt any excitation while i was in love of her and she was gorgeous. 3 months after she broke up and I continue to see this pornography (and also "normal porn") I met some one night stand girl but it was the same so i never saw them again.. I already refuse to bring back a girl at mine because i knew it will happened... I lied to my friends and myself because i'm shame to say i'm still virgin and i cant have an erection... I moved to London last year for my work and the beginning was really hard,( no family, no friends, hardwork, lot of pressure) the porn was for me a way to relax and breathe... One day i met an escort to realise my "foot fetish" and i felt very ashamed at the end, i deleted everyting every email but finally 1 /2 week after i started to continue the mastrubation on porn BDSM etc... (and scat too) anyway on july i met a girl and i think i fall in love after 2 weeks with her, we spent an amazing time together without sex because she wanted to wait. For me i passed to nothing to a girl who came in life giving me lot of love and attention. One month after after a night out we decided to came at mine and i was stress because i didnt want to mess up with her..and it's happened again she was very offended but i told her i didnt know and she is absolutely not in cause of that... Unfortunaterly things started to get worse and she cheat on me after one month. That completely broke my heart because it was the last person i imagine do that to me... I was so in love that i took off my proud and forgive her and we keep going this relation while i didnt have any trust in her and it was aweful. I saw a doctor who recommand me to take some cialis. At the beginning i had erection during fellation but once i had to put the condom i lose my erection. Also I stop all porn when i met her because i knew it was bad for me but i keep the mastrubation under the shower thinking of her etc..but once a week . The last night with her she was on period but i was on cialis and i never had this erection i was so frustated we couldnt do it because i was hard from beginning to the en (it was about 2 months without porn) then she broke with me it has been one month now. It was very very hard because i feel quite alone here and i miss her a lot but ... at the end of the day after all she did to me ... I discover the PIED and yourbrainonporn only 2 weeks ago and i realise only that that i was dependant of porn and my brain was completely fucked up... I knew the extrem porn was unhealthy but i never realise my level of dopamine required is inusual.. It has been one month i didnt masturbate and 3 months without porn. I have my morning woods but i still have some sexual fantasy in my head that i try to hunt each time i think of that. I dont know how long would it take to have my brain back to normal and be excited by the simply looking of a woman i love or only by kissing her. If i could back to my 15 only to avoid this i wil. I'm glad that its not irreverssible and my sexuality could be back to normal but after how long? Also so far i still not feel any excitation for pretty girls i met on the tube or on the street. Is it what we call the flatline? I use to go a LOT on facebook and Tinder, is it a bad thing for my reboot? should i stop every dating app and facebook for one year? If i meet a new girl and i could try to have sex with her should i avoid it the time i would be "cure"? I dont feel any tentation to masturbate or going one pornsite because i know it the reason to my fail with my ex girlfriend i loved and that kill me because i'm the only responsible to that.
last week i had a sexual dream including some fetish and when i woke up it was completely wet. Is it normal ?
I'm sorry for this very very long text but that help me to speak without taboo
Cheers