Well, having battled this for the last 7 years or so, I'm ready to fight and get my life back. I'm in my early 40's, married, have a beautiful family and a great job. Somehow, I have fallen into the trap of being totally addicted to porn and sexual fantasy. My problem is a unique one as that I spend 2 to 3 nights a week in hotels on the road working for an airline. When I'm home I have almost no urges to look at porn whatsoever, but as soon as I get to my hotel room, and I know I have a lengthy layover, I robotically start hitting the porn. I get a bottle of wine or a 6 pack of beer, sit down and enter the fantasy world of porn. I've tried using blocking software on my smartphone, with some success, although I enjoy the challenge of trying to outsmart myself and crack it. Another source is the 24 hours of unlimited porn movies on the hotel's PPV channel. My entire day long, I have no intention of failing and bingeing on the porn, but it seems that as soon as I get into the room, I'm triggered, and become determined to get my fix, which sometimes can be an 8 hour marathon of porn videos and pictures.
I'm disgusted with my behavior, and long to free myself from this affliction. Every week, I promise myself that was the last time, but low and behold, the cycle repeats itself over and over.
This madness has to stop, and I am encouraged by the successes experienced by many folks on here, and am going to set a goal to complete a 90 day reboot. I've gone a month or so porn free, but as soon as I'm back on the road I relapse, so I think a longer rewire period is in order.
Wish me luck
I'm disgusted with my behavior, and long to free myself from this affliction. Every week, I promise myself that was the last time, but low and behold, the cycle repeats itself over and over.
This madness has to stop, and I am encouraged by the successes experienced by many folks on here, and am going to set a goal to complete a 90 day reboot. I've gone a month or so porn free, but as soon as I'm back on the road I relapse, so I think a longer rewire period is in order.
Wish me luck