ruinedatbirth
New Member
Hello everyone,
My situation is not typical and I think I might actually need porn to stay sane. I'm 36 years old. I recently deleted over 400 GB of porn from my computer, the reason I did this was because I needed the space on my computer and I wanted to be more productive - I realized I would wasted many hours each week just searching for the stuff. I decided that I'd quit porn all together and honestly my only reason was to be productive as I never saw it as a problem in itself but rather the only solution to an unfair situation. When I was a baby I was circumcised. The doctor did a terrible job. When I went through puberty it became apparent there was a problem, I didn't have enough shaft skin and it caused all sorts of problems. The problems got worse as I grew and eventually I stopped having sex because the state of my junk is disgusting, embarrassing. The humiliation of having a girl being totally into you and then changing as soon as she sees your mutilated dick is indescribable. The depression this has caused me is profound. I have become something I shouldn't be. I'm introverted, anxious, always sick, zero motivation to do anything. What's the point of trying when no matter how fit you get, how much money you make you still can't be intimate with someone. So obviously porn has been a big part of my life, it's all I've got. I never considered myself addicted - I really wanted to have sex but couldn't so it was the next best thing. I'd like to know what you guys think. Should a person who can't have normal sex give up porn? I read a lot of the posts on this site and the main reason people do this it seems is to get back their proper sex drive and to enjoy real sex with real women but that's not going to be me so what's the point?
My situation is not typical and I think I might actually need porn to stay sane. I'm 36 years old. I recently deleted over 400 GB of porn from my computer, the reason I did this was because I needed the space on my computer and I wanted to be more productive - I realized I would wasted many hours each week just searching for the stuff. I decided that I'd quit porn all together and honestly my only reason was to be productive as I never saw it as a problem in itself but rather the only solution to an unfair situation. When I was a baby I was circumcised. The doctor did a terrible job. When I went through puberty it became apparent there was a problem, I didn't have enough shaft skin and it caused all sorts of problems. The problems got worse as I grew and eventually I stopped having sex because the state of my junk is disgusting, embarrassing. The humiliation of having a girl being totally into you and then changing as soon as she sees your mutilated dick is indescribable. The depression this has caused me is profound. I have become something I shouldn't be. I'm introverted, anxious, always sick, zero motivation to do anything. What's the point of trying when no matter how fit you get, how much money you make you still can't be intimate with someone. So obviously porn has been a big part of my life, it's all I've got. I never considered myself addicted - I really wanted to have sex but couldn't so it was the next best thing. I'd like to know what you guys think. Should a person who can't have normal sex give up porn? I read a lot of the posts on this site and the main reason people do this it seems is to get back their proper sex drive and to enjoy real sex with real women but that's not going to be me so what's the point?
