EDallmylife
New Member
So this is my story. I just found out about PIED and I might have found the cause to the problem that is ruining my life. If anyone has had a similar story please let me know that Im not the only one and how it "worked out" for you!
I just turned 23. All my teen years I was a gamer and didn't really have any experience with girls at all. I masturbated probably every day and often several times. Usually to porn, since the day I started, around age 12 perhaps. In recent years I have experienced the need to switch to more hardcore stuff that is commonly described when talking about PIED. Stuff I did not initially find arousing at all.
At the embaressing age of 20 I had quit gaming and I was actually able to find a girl. I figured I would finally lose my virginity but even though we tried like 10 times over a 3 week period I was never able to get erect enough to have sex. I blamed alcohol and tried it sober with the same result. I tried blaming it on anxiety cos of the first failed attempt which was due to alcohol but in reality I knew that was not true, I was never that anxious.
I then had another opportunity a few months later with the same result. Since I had not yet found out about PIED I kept on masturbating thinking that I did not have any ED physical problems since I could masturbate to porn.
Now, around 2 years after that I still have the same problem if I manage to get a girl home. Even when I think she's really hot I cant get hard enough. The only time my penis gets even remotely erect is when I fantasize about porn things during the foreplay but that is nowhere near enough to get me erect enough to have sex.
The thing is. I was or am not addicted to porn. Since my last failed attempt with a girl almost 2 weeks ago I have completely stopped watching porn and masturbation. The only reason why I did it was to: 1 Get some temporary satisfaction. 2 Make sure my dick actually worked and pretend like everything was normal.
I remember being able to masturbate without porn or fantasy when I was younger, that got more and more difficult and has for the last few years not been possible without fantasising about pornscenarios.
Im guessing my brain never even "learned" to feel reward from going after real life girls/women and that Im now going to have to reprogram it completely towards this kind of behaviour.
This is what Im doing now:
I have quit masturbating and watching porn. I dont feel like this is a problem at this point (about 10 days in) and dont suspect it will be.
Im feeling what I suppose is the "flatline" where my dick is smaller than ever. My libido is insanely low. Right now I feel like I couldn't even get an erection with porn but Im not going to try that one.
This is what my plan is:
Keep up the reboot, No artificial stimuli but try to flirt, make contact with and sleep with (go home and try to sleep with) real women in order to program my brain to get satisfaction and reward from those things.
If anyone has been through something like this, please let me know that it is possible and any tips / info you might have on what Im in for!
Kind regards EDallmylife!
Would really like to get some feedback on the amount of time/effort I could have in front of me from people with similar stories!
I just turned 23. All my teen years I was a gamer and didn't really have any experience with girls at all. I masturbated probably every day and often several times. Usually to porn, since the day I started, around age 12 perhaps. In recent years I have experienced the need to switch to more hardcore stuff that is commonly described when talking about PIED. Stuff I did not initially find arousing at all.
At the embaressing age of 20 I had quit gaming and I was actually able to find a girl. I figured I would finally lose my virginity but even though we tried like 10 times over a 3 week period I was never able to get erect enough to have sex. I blamed alcohol and tried it sober with the same result. I tried blaming it on anxiety cos of the first failed attempt which was due to alcohol but in reality I knew that was not true, I was never that anxious.
I then had another opportunity a few months later with the same result. Since I had not yet found out about PIED I kept on masturbating thinking that I did not have any ED physical problems since I could masturbate to porn.
Now, around 2 years after that I still have the same problem if I manage to get a girl home. Even when I think she's really hot I cant get hard enough. The only time my penis gets even remotely erect is when I fantasize about porn things during the foreplay but that is nowhere near enough to get me erect enough to have sex.
The thing is. I was or am not addicted to porn. Since my last failed attempt with a girl almost 2 weeks ago I have completely stopped watching porn and masturbation. The only reason why I did it was to: 1 Get some temporary satisfaction. 2 Make sure my dick actually worked and pretend like everything was normal.
I remember being able to masturbate without porn or fantasy when I was younger, that got more and more difficult and has for the last few years not been possible without fantasising about pornscenarios.
Im guessing my brain never even "learned" to feel reward from going after real life girls/women and that Im now going to have to reprogram it completely towards this kind of behaviour.
This is what Im doing now:
I have quit masturbating and watching porn. I dont feel like this is a problem at this point (about 10 days in) and dont suspect it will be.
Im feeling what I suppose is the "flatline" where my dick is smaller than ever. My libido is insanely low. Right now I feel like I couldn't even get an erection with porn but Im not going to try that one.
This is what my plan is:
Keep up the reboot, No artificial stimuli but try to flirt, make contact with and sleep with (go home and try to sleep with) real women in order to program my brain to get satisfaction and reward from those things.
If anyone has been through something like this, please let me know that it is possible and any tips / info you might have on what Im in for!
Kind regards EDallmylife!
Would really like to get some feedback on the amount of time/effort I could have in front of me from people with similar stories!