Can't help masturbating.

[Rockit]

Tired of not being in control. Tired of wondering how every woman looks naked. Tired of looking at porn. Tired of being tempted to do things that would only hurt other people.

I've been lurking here, but before I actually start holding myself accountable, I won't get anywhere. I need to beat this so I feel comfortable asking my girlfriend to marry me. Not until I'm sure I won't ever hurt her by doing something stupid.

Day one.

 

[Rockit]

Onto day two. Need to refocus on what is important. No flirting with anyone. No putting myself in situations where I could do something stupid. No checking people out. No porn, no getting off.

I need to say "yes" to self-control. I need to do what is best for my girlfriend and I. I really want and need these fantasiesbto stop.

 

[Rockit]

Seems like my brain wants me to do it, the moment I get off work.

Posting this, then taking a nap.  I hope this gets easier.  Worked really hard not to have any fantasies.

 

[presson]

Hey, glad to see your committing to getting rid of this problem. There's lots of good resources and encouragement here, which I have found to be vital. Good luck with it man, keep powering through!

 

[pandaman]

Good for you man! I'm sure your girlfriend will notice an improvement in your relationship once you've met your goal!

 

[Rockit]

I feel temptation all the time and it is a lot of work to get rid of fantasies before sleeping. I will admit, when I am not alone, it is so much easier. Girlfriend was off work today.

 

[Rockit]

Urges were pretty tough today.  I really fear for this weekend when I'm home alone all day.

 

[pandaman]

So stop pussyfooting and get out of the house. You know if you're home alone you'll relapse. Unless you get rid of your home internet source don't let yourself be tempted by it. I'm all for sympathy and second chances but put the work in man

 

[Rockit]

Yeah, I had to take your advice. I'vw not relapsed, but some days it is really strong.

It is annoying to me too. I feel fine until I get home from work and I feel bored. Really have to find something to do to take my mind off it. Proud of the fact I have yet to relapse, but I really need to remember why I am doing this. Working really hard to avoid fantasizing too. Gotta keep putting the work in.

 

[Fappy]

Going steady mate. Boredom is very bad for porn addiction, gotta keep busy! Do your hobby or even start a new one. Once boredom and the fact that porn is at your fingertips is a deadly combo

 

[Vincent]

hoi bud, you DON'T have yet to relapse! that's the wrong mindset! You can make it you know? What you are doing an going through is a withdrawal from a very addictive "substance". Never take this lightly.

However: fight for it. don't laze around. don't wait for the time to pass by until day x. every day is full of opportunities, so seize them. Go outside, have a run, a walk, a hike or simply an ice-cream (in summer then....), hell why not go visit a friend?

there is only one moment during this reboot, when you really realize that you have moved forward: The moment you stop searching for excuses, the moment you accept your responsibility for yourself and your happiness and the moment you realize that you CAN do it! The rules are simple: don't lie to yourself. fight yourself and you will see that it is nothing but a habit that affects you deeply. every habit can be changed!

I very much think you can do this, man!

 

[Rockit]

Thanks for the replies, folks! Very much appreciated. Just want to get to the end of this week.

...And then I can try for another week after that.

Looking at it 90 days at a time can be daunting, so I'm just going to try and keep going.

 

[Rockit]

Approaching two weeks.  At one time, I thought this was impossible.

I never realized how hard it was to actively stop fantasizing and checking people out.  Latter has been easier.  At night, fantasizing is hard to stop.  But, I am trying to stop.

Seeing so many people on here with huge streaks is motivating me to keep going.  When I hit 30 days... it's going to be sweet.

No M'ing at all.  No porn.  Orgasms only with my girlfriend.

I can, and will do this.

 

[Vincent]

Dude, you are running faster and faster. That is awesome and really something to respect yourself for! You got over a month, so congratulations are due!!!

keep on your journey of no fapping, you are an inspiration! You went die hard mode and started with a mindset of "i have yet to relapse". But you came this far!! this is amazing.  Be proud of it!

All the best

VIncent