A clean break

[dollypi]

I am 33 years old. This is 2014. I have been addicted to porn since I was about 16. That's 17 years of almost consistent porn and fapping.

For the first time this year, I went soft while having sex with a beautiful, sexy woman. And it's happened at least three other times since then.
Not only this, but my marriage was affected in part because of my insatiable need for porn and fapping. I am now separated, in the midst of a divorce.

At this point in my life, I have been focusing on improving different facets of my life, and this porn habit is next on the agenda.

I tried to do it half heartedly about a month ago, and relapsed on about the 3rd day. I find that when I'm very busy, I don't even think of porn, but as soon as I have a free hour or two on my hands, at night, away I go

My goal is to make it to 3 months.



**** Journal Answers ********************
?Did I use porn today?
Yes.
?What were my triggers?
Idle, trying to sleep with a laptop open beside me on my bed.

?How did I soothe my anxiety or stress?
Went for a power walk

?What am I grateful for today?
    1. Starting this journal
    2. I have a great job, and great potential
    3. I am getting better at social interactions
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[Fappy]

Hi mate, welcome to the forum. Youll find a lot of support and advice here!
Realising the effect porn has had on your life is a positive first step!
I agree with you. Theres an old saying, idle hands are the devils fap shop. Its true. When we are not busy our mind wanders. Sometimes to places it shouldnt.
Need to rein in that wandering mind. Try some meditation or mindfulness techniques to recognise the triggers and urges and stop them dead in their tracks.
It all takes time though as im sure other users here will tell you. But each day is a new opportunity to better your problems!